07 July 2008

Because Of You

I. Am. Going. Crazy.

Been 24 hours since I got off that bus. But I'm still thinking about it.

It's like Ne-Yo's song Because of You. Fits what I'm feeling. Especially the 2nd verse.


It's about a guy, sure. But a guy I'm really really really not supposed to be thinking about. No, not Isa.

Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug

Listening to the song right now. Funny thing is: I never liked the song before. Nope, never. Because I never understood. I mean, sure, I've felt lust before but never in the way Ne-Yo describes it in the song. Never, until now.

Now I understand. Especially, "
Think of it every second, I can't get nothing done. Only concern is the next time I'm gonna get me some." Well, 'getting me some' is against my principles. Against myself.

And no, no. It has got nothing to do with love. I bet you don't know what it's like. I bet you'll judge. I bet you won't believe me when I say I can't help myself. I can't.

Problem: He's not that hot. I prefer Isa. Still can't get it out of my mind though. And I 'like the way it feels'.


LoVe~
MzP<3

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