Cookie Monster Stuff

Episode 12. Season 5.

Best Grey's Anatomy episode ever.

Warning: Spoiler alert.

Whoa. It is one way to show how the world is not black and white. I mean, feeling compassion for a serial killer? Like, seriously, whoa. Telling a serial killer how to kill himself? Whoa. A serial killer who actually likes to kill. No, make that loves to kill.

Meredith Grey is seriously kick ass. KICK ASS.

This is the type of thing that really appeals to the deeper side of me. The side that doesn't usually rears it's head. A girl who actually don't mind screwing up her relationship with her potential mother-in-law is so damn freaking cool.

End of Spoiler.

So yes, you caught me. Wasting my time watching series again. 90210, Gossip Girl, Lipstick Jungle, Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, Desperate Housewives, One Tree Hill.

Cookie Monster!!

Nah, that's nothing but a random title for the blog post. Hehe.

Why cookie monster? Well, why not cookie monster? He's big. And blue. And furry. And wishes the moon is a cookie. And we all know who he is. If you don't, well, umm... lose-er! So yeah, We all love cookie monster.

So he deserves to be the title of my blog post at least once. Hail cookie!


LoVe~
MzP<3>

Realization Attacks

Today is the day of realizations. More like the hour of realizations.

First, I realize my sleep time is soooo screwed up. Yea, I realized this when it's actually 5.20am, and I'm thinking, oh, it's still early. Guess it's turning into some weird routine where I just simply sleep after the sun rises. Don't ask why.

Then, another realization. It is way overdue for me to actually do something about this incredibly bland blog page. Seriously, it's way way past that time. But you can't blame me too much. I'm still figuring out the ISO thing so I can install the photoshop, so I can finally learn how to use it. And to finally design my blog. So, you just have to bear with it for a little while longer. Ummm... unless you want to give me a lesson on ISO? Please?

But between designing MSA stuff, social dance party stuff and ADND stuff, forgive me if my blog is the most uncreative one around. Seriously, for someone who thinks of herself to be creative, this blog is like the blandest of all bland. Trust me, no one is in more pain than I am opening my blog page. It's like, whoa. Bland. Like, oh, blog, instead of, yay, blog! You know what I mean?

And there is one big ass spider in my room. I'm ignoring it. Because first, killing it is just too cruel. My windows can't be opened. I'm too scared to catch it and release it outside. And it is not the Sydney funnel web spider for it doesn't have those big sharps fangs. As far as I know, it's not poisonous. So as long as it keeps its distance, I hope I'm safe.

I realise that counting sheep doesn't work. Or counting backwards from 10,000. Or relaxing my body. Or even putting all my thoughts into a TV and switching it off. Just not happening. Somehow I seem to sleep easily at any time of the day... except for when I'm supposed to. Seriously. That, to me, is one of those mysteries in life I could never answer.

Ummm... instead, would you like to know even more useless facts that only I seem to know because they're just so useless? Alright, I bet you wouldn't like to know. But oh well, couldn't hurt to try huh.

The male seahorse gets pregnant instead of the female.

Women are more likely to cheat in a long term relationship than men.

We burp 2 types of gasses, and we fart 4 types.

Eating fish everyday reduces the risk of getting Alzheimer's by 65%.

Fingernails grow 3 times faster than toenails.

The lighter was invented before the match.

By dropping the dollar sign $ in restaurants, they get customers to spend $5 more on average on a meal.

There are 70 million people who practice taekwando, and 4 million of them are black belts.

Strongest muscle in your body is the tongue.

49 countries reported XDR-TB. Extreme Drug Resistant TB.

Brain releases hormones serotonin and dopamine while shopping.

The popular ingredient taurine in energy drinks are taken from bulls' testicles.


Korean millitary practises taekwando as part of millitary training.

One frog species, its tadpoles are five times bigger than its adult frog.

The first email was sent by Queen Elizabeth.

The currency of Estonia is the Estonian Kroon.

The frog breathes using it's lungs or skin.

Okay, the last one is a joke. Exclusively for my cousin who thinks frogs breathes using gills. Because they're amphibians. OMG, we couldn't stop laughing about this. Oh, and by the way, turtle is penyu and tortoise is kura-kura. Please don't be confused about this. After all, we Malaysians are supposed to be bilingual experts. So please don't ruin the one thing we have.

Oh, and please please learn to spell Tyrannosaurus Rex. You'd be surprised at how many people out there who don't know how to spell this. C'mon! It's something you're supposed to know when you're 8 years old. So please. Please please please.

Oh, and if you're on the learning quest, please find out what the Illiad and the Odyssey are. Those two are really important part of history.

Having fun with all this interesting but useless information? But makes you want to know more, doesn't it? Sure. Till next time.

Oh, and in the meantime, you know what you have to do. Go do it. I challenge you to.


LoVe
MzP<3>

To Cheat or Not To Cheat?

Yesterday, I got a great piece of advice. It's a long winded advice, but to cut it short, and put it in a sentence, it would be:

"Don't cheat on your boyfriend unless you know that person is better than him."

I think that's genius. One of the best advice I'm given.

I mean, when you think about it, it's true. So true. I mean, why would you want to risk a breakup of a relationship if it's not with someone better, right? So it's more like, if you wanna trade, trade up. And you'll be alright.

You see, maybe that's the mistake some people make when they cheat. I mean, it's like a guy cheats on his girlfriend, but don't want to lose her. And when he does, he'll just realize it's not worth it anyway. So that's the thing. Don't regret. Cheat with someone better. Then if your partner leaves you, you get someone better. Knowing that gives you the power, doesn't it? But it's simple logic, don't you think?

Alright, alright, you might say it's a heartless thing to do. But I know that alot more people are selfish in this world. And do you really think your partner won't leave you if he/she finds someone better, someone more of his/her type, more of what he/she is looking for? Really. They will leave. And here, I would stress I'm talking solely for girlfriend/boyfriend relationships, and not about marriage. When you marry someone, it's a different story altogether, and don't you dare cheat.

So yes, it's like that. Admit it, if you find your soulmate tomorrow, and you are really perfect for each other, you will leave your partner. We humans are selfish. But I guess it's just so true.



Which is why I don't have a reason to cheat in my boyfriend. Not a reason. There is not one person that is better than him. Or more perfect for me. It's the reason of my monogamy. And thanks to the person who gave me this advice, and made me realize this. I would positively kill myself if I ever cheat on my boyfriend with someone worse, because I'm just putting myself in the dumpster. And since no one better exists, why do it at all?

Even if love is a small part of the consideration, if you don't love a person that much but you know you can spend forever together, and no one will be better, then dont cheat.

So yes, that piece of advice, although cruel in essence, is keeping my relationship together at the moment. And now you know, something bad can be good. The world is not black and white.

My sense of logic might be disconcerting. But we all know, falling back into logic once in awhile, might just save you.

Hell, it's saving me right now.


LoVe~
MzP<3

Real Life Situations

My baby is so merajuk already now... Because I wrote I wanna do Cam Gigandet. OMG, my baby is soooo cute, merajuk with me on Skype. Hehe.

OK, so in this post, I'll admit that I wanna so do Thaqeef Hisham even more than Cam Gigandet. Wanna see why?No kidding, that is the bicep of my boyfriend. My boyfriend. And the only reason I'm not putting up pictures of his abs... is because I so wanna keep some parts of him to myself. Hahaha. No, make that most parts of him.

And my boyfriend is a black belt in Taekwando. Hah. Take that. (OMG, I never get sick of bragging about that. Hehe.)

Alright. At the risk of showing the world exactly how obsessed I am with him, and saving you from puking all over your keyboard, I'll just stop here.

Just one more thing: Wish you were here, baby. So bad. And then you'll know I haven't been thinking about Cam Gigandet even half as much as I've been thinking about you. Really.


So... yeah. Guess what? I'm considering taking up Krav Maga. Yea. It is only like the coolest martial arts out there. And the most realistic one. OK, courtesy of Cam Gigandet. But I'm not doing it solely because of him (Or so I tell myself), I'm doing it because of self defense. Krav Maga is the one martial arts that actually teaches you how to combat in real life situations, in real life scenarios. So yes, I think it's definitely the most suitable martial arts I could learn right now, given my extreme lack of martial arts background.

So I've been scouting around. There are classes in Sydney. One on Pitt St, one in Epping, and one in Sydney West. Thinking about the one on Pitt St. Anyone interested to join? It's not that expensive, I promise. Once a week class, held every Wednesday, for 8 weeks. Starting in February. Give me a buzz if you're interested. Oh, and because it's so intense, you have to be above 16 to join.

Thaqeef and I are so doing it. Yay. So so so excited. Though I expect I won't be very soon when they exhaust me in every class. Hmm... But still. And I have a feeling my dad would be OK with this martial arts. Because whenever I wanted to take up kickboxing or something, he keeps on complaining that I won't use them in real life situations. So, take that, daddy. I've found a martial arts form that actually teaches you how to deal in real life situations. So, any more reasons to say no? Hehe.

Oh, and if you don't know what Krav Maga is, and want to know, Wiki it. Trust me, after you read about the training, you'd so think it is damn cool. So come join me.


LoVe~
MzP<3

Anticipation

It's 11pm on a Friday night.

People are partying out there. Having fun. I can hear them out there. Almost calling to me. I'll bet Ivy is full to the brim. Wish I am there instead.

And here I am, in my room, in T-shirt and sweat pants. Waiting for my boyfriend to call.

Beyond pathetic, I know.

This is how we're celebrating our 5 months. Thousands of miles apart. With minimum means of communication. I'm sinking. Slowly.

One consolation to me: I'll be partying tomorrow night. Saturday. Woo-hoo.

So meanwhile, to while away the time, I'm doing... wait for it... Work! For the Malaysian Association thing. Designing the T-shirt, looking up websites, coming up with decorations, designing posters, online shopping, brainstorming, bla-di-bla-di-bla. And doing all that, came across the Oscar website. And a whole load of interesting stuff.

Live Academy Awards on TV on the 22nd of February!!!

So, I'm coming out with a list of all the movies I want to watch...

Here it is::::::Status: Watched!
Verdict: Pretty good. Could be better though.Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Pretty much at the top of my list of must, must, must watch. Huge huge huge fan of the book.

Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: If the Oscars is anything to go by, this movie must be pretty good. I'm just not so sure myself.

Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Firstly, it's Angelina Jolie! And second, I just know it's going to be amazing. High expectations for this one.

Status: Watched!
Verdict: By all means, go watch it. It is just touching and good and will leave this warm feeling inside you all over.
Status: Anticipating. --> Watched!
Verdict: A little half-half. Might be good, might be bad too. But friend said, with Jennifer Aniston, it can't really go wrong. Hmm.. She's got a point.
--> Umm... Pretty draggy. But Touching. And I did wanna get a dog after this movie. (Can I, syg?...)

Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: It's pretty high up the box office currently. Hopefully it's good.Status: Anticipating.--> Watched!
Verdict: It's Meryl Streep!!! And so many Oscar nominations for this movie, I'd better not miss it. And trailer looks good.--> OMG, please go and watch it. It is just so good. I really like it. Just rocks. I doubt you won't find it a-mazing!Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Liked the other Underworlds. But one without Kate Beckinsale? Hmm.. I'm very very very skeptical.
Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Also from the Oscars. Oh it sounds good now that I've read the summary thing. Won't miss it.

Status: Anticipating. (Well, not really)
Verdict: Another kids' movie. Whoopee (That's sarcasm, people). Will watch it if nothing else to do. Might just get the DVD.
Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Trailer looks good. Just not a big fan of Clive Owens. Still deciding...Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Sucker for Ralph Fienne's smiling eyes. Looks tasteful too.
Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Seems like a movie I would like. But I'm not so sure. Hopefully I would.


Status: Anticipating.
Verdict: Trailer is good. And I do have the hots for Dominic Cooper. Don't mind seeing him topless again... Hehe.

One more thing:

I am so hot for Cam Gigandet right now. Or also known as James in Twilight. OMG he is so damn bloody HOTTT!!! Like so hot he's making my blood boil, my heart race, my toes curl, my breath heavy and all those all over body tingling sensations.

Fine, maybe it's a little bit of my obsession of the evil guys in movies. But seriously though. He's one of those who's really up there. Wayyy up there.

I mean, seriously, I would so much, like a thousand times over, do him than Edward Cullen in the movie. Just look at him.
Now, tell me that is not hotttt. The abs... The biceps... The shoulders... Sure beats Edward Cullen's muka jambu. Hehe.

He's 26 and he's an expert in the Israeli martial arts Krav Maga. Coolness or what??!!

OMG OMG OMG. Now I know what I want for my birthday. Cam Gigandet. Him and just him. Please please please please please...

Here's dreaming!


LoVe~
MzP<3>

One Man

Have I ever told you about my fascination for men in uniform?

Of course not. Because I don't have that fascination.

I know of some girls who love men in uniform. You know, army, pilot, air force, and all that.

Not me. It's always the crisp suit that gets me. The tie and shiny shoes. The pressed shirt. Kept hair. The big shot impression. It's always that.

I'm always for men of power. That can hold his own. Call the shots. I'm all for that.

I had always wanted a man I could rely on. A man who holds his stance. Who has his own mind. Who has it figured out. Who knows what he wants and goes for it.

Someone who's not afraid to make the first move. And will just brush it off and laugh if turned down.


Enough of all this. Truthfully, I'm hiding. I'm hiding from what really is. And what is real is my fear and incapability of commitment. That is it, I know now. That's why I run. I always run. I always build that thick brick wall. The thing is, I don't know why. Or maybe I do. Maybe it's the hurt I can't stand.

Is it true that love is supposed to hurt? Then , I wouldn't want to love. I really wouldn't. Because the more you love someone, the more hurt you can get with every single mistake. So I'm blocking it. Is it me? Perhaps it's me. I'm sure it's me. It's me, no doubt about it.

But why? Why me? Why does it just have to hurt so damn bloody much, sometimes? So much it turns physical. And then I try to run again. And again.

Ugh! Doesn't anyone know when to let go anymore these days? Or how. There is a beauty in walking away. We all know that.

Help me, kids. I'm pleading not to hurt this much anymore. Begging.



LoVe~
MzP<3

Logic Matters

Physically. And emotionally. In pain.

Today could equal the worst day in my life if I think about it. I mean it should be the worst. It should.

Have I ever written about my logic theory?

The first part of the theory is that emotions do not exist.

Why? Because it's not logical. Because what we know exist is all in this world. It changes things. But think about it, when it comes to emotions, sure it influences people to do things and eventually change the world. But, when you don't act on it, it doesn't mean anything. It disappears. It's just a blip in you that might as well does not exist. So there it goes. There it goes. It's not logical.

Which is why breakups don't hurt me that much. Not because I'm less human. Not because I'm feeling-less. It's because of logic. Just logic. Seems cruel, sure. But I just don't see the point crying over it if it's not going to work out in the first place. I mean it's just so... illogical.

So yes, logic. Whether you like it or not, it's all around us. I mean even the beautiful sunset is a bunch of calculations.

I am not implying that you should take the beauty out of everything. Beauty is always there. Always. Because beauty is something I believe in. With all my heart.

So logic rules. In my book, if that can hurt you less, by all means do it. It might just make this world a better place.


LoVe~
MzP<3

21

When the clock strikes midnight tonight... I will turn...
Yep, it's the big deal.

And at this same time tomorrow: Is the time I was born!!!

So the big 21. Yum.

I am:
-Emancipated from my parents. That means I can actually get married without their permission.
-I am a legal adult in most parts of the world. That means I can buy houses. Buy stuff. Apply things.
-Responsible fully in law. Mmmm... No more juvy things. Wait maybe this isn't so great after all.
-I can vote. Hah. Watch out politics, here I come!

Oh and by the way, I'll be in Ivy when the clock strikes midnight. And I'll be the one who's in the ball gown and horse drawn carriage... Definitely the opposite of Cinderella.

My wish for the 21st? That I'll be happy. As happy as can be the whole year through.

Alright. Got to get ready for tonight!!!

OMG I'm sooooo excited, I'm shaking!!!!

See you in Ivy!


LoVe~
MzP<3>