23 August 2006

Guilt and Bad Days

I'm not in college today because I woke up this morning with a terrible chest pain. It was quite bad, I couldn't straighten myself up. I didn't feel like going to the college anyway today. Just had a lab exam yesterday and it was a complete disaster. I have no idea what the question wants me to do. My experiments just doesn't work, and gave me no results at all. It was just terrible. Well, let's not talk about it.

Monday was my friends birthday, and I totally forgot about it!!! Until Tuesday. I feel extremely guilty because we were quite close during boarding school days. She was part of the 'Makan(Eat) Group'. We were the group who'll get together because of food. Whenever we get food, we'll get for the four of us, and eat and talk together. It was fun. I still feel guilty now, because it's been two days since her birthday and I couldn't get myself to pick up the phone to call her. I can't bring myself to admit to her that I forgot her birthday after being pretty sure she remembered my birthday in January. What am I supposed to do?! Help!

My exams are just next week. I'm scared to death as I'm not prepared! Guess I've been a little too caught up in Harry Potter(which I'm almost done reading, btw) and my terrible phlegm condition. I'm just dead scared. The exam timetable is not exactly favourable to me, anyway. I've got Economics and Chemistry paper on the same day. It couldn't get worse than that, but I'm not supposed to say that just in case they do make it worse for my next exam(which is AS-6 weeks!!!!!!!). I'm perspiring just thinking about it.

My life is just so not interesting right now. Sorry guys. I'm bound to get writer's block anytime now and at that time, don't think I'll be writing anything for this blog right here. I just thank god I don't have to take English paper. Can't afford to get writer's block if I have a whole paper where I'm supposed to write and depend only on my own head. After all these medication, I don't think my head will ever be the same again...


LoVe~
MzP<3

22 August 2006

Double~Twice the Agony

I was just reading my best friend, Iman's blog. She was talking about us missing the Paris Hilton album launch the other day. Well, truthfully, I don't really feel like I missed a lot. I mean, I like her and all but it's just an album launch. It's not like she was there. She probably would go, "Huh? Malaysia? What's that?" Oh well, I don't really blame her, Malaysia's not really on the map. And seeing as how things are these days, I don't think it'll ever be.

Well, my excessive phlegm condition is still here. It is so very irritating having my nose clogged up. And very not attractive. Seriously, would you consider going out with a girl blowing into her tissue every minute? I don't think so. Oh well, it's not like I'll get a shot for a boyfriend these days. I'm getting to close with my ex and everytime that happens guys'll be all terrified to come close to me. Malay guys are already too cowardly. Wish a chinese guy would ask me out this time.

Went to the doctor this morning, our family doctor. Guess what? He doesn't recognise me. He said I grew too much already(I really hope he doesn't mean sideways). I got on the weighing machine and found out I gained 1kg since I last weighed myself. Not good news at all. I was hoping to loose weight. My BMI says I'm healthy but I want to be underweight! Ca'nt I just donate my fat in the fat cells to people who really need them?

I think my mother and her twin(surprise suprise, my mom has a twin-identical) is so similar to one another, and I don't mean just the looks. They're just the same. With minor differences here and there. They constantly get into fights one day and are suddenly so buddy-buddy the next day. And they never say sorry to each other. Goes to show just how stubborn they are. One thing they have in common. Second thing they have in common is what my mom don't like about her twin is exactly what her twin don't like about her. They have both been know to come to me and complain about the exact same thing. Example, they both talk alot and they'll both come to me and complain about how the other twin talks too much. But when they are on good terms, well, there's nothing they don't say to each other. They'll be on the phone 24/7. They're also masters of talking about other people. I always wonder if they both got a university degree in 'Lives of Others' because they are really good at it. I think sometimes they get into fights so that they won't run out of things to talk to each other, or maybe just sick of the other's voice at the other end of the phone line.


LoVe~
MzP<3

18 August 2006

An Excess of Phlegm

As u die hard fans of Harry Potter know, 'An Excess of Phlegm' is a chapter in the 6th book. Funnily, it's also my condition right now. Quite sick with flu and a sore throat (the recent haze and all). Well I'm not exactly a die hard fan of Harry Potter, just rereading the books before the 7th book comes out. I'm more of a fan of (whisper) Voldemort (gasp)... He is so hot! I really hope J.K. Rowling doesn't suddenly change the ending of the last book, I kind of like the idea of Harry Potter dying. A few reasons :
1. My friend(who's a real die hard fan) says if 7 is the last book then she'd rather Harry die. At least after she finishes the book she won't start wondering what Harry does for the rest of his life. I totally agree.
2. Aren't we already showered with books and movies with happy endings(especially from Steven Spielberg)? I'm sick of all these 'tears of joy' stories. Don't get me wrong, I'm not a sadist, but depict something related to real life for once(although Harry Potter is not exactly real life).
3. Last but not least, my most important opinion and reason Harry Potter should die is... because I want to be united with my dear Dark Lord Voldemort after he kills Harry and rule the world together!!!! MwahahahahahahaHAHA

Back to my life. Just went through the Biology lab test today. My AS trial exam. It was totally hard. Terribly hard. Well, I don't really want to talk about it.

I suspect there's a virus on my computer right now. I have no idea what's wrong with it. It became painfully slow, laggy, and I can't open some files. All these virus talk makes me wish I was using Mac instead of Windows. Why? Because there isn't any official virus written for Mac. Makes sense because if I want to write a computer virus and become really well known and popular because of it, I'd probably write it for Windows as more people uses Windows and it will spread around faster than Mac. Unfortunately, I, being the receiving end of the viruses, am using Windows. One day I'll get a MacBook, you'll see.

I'm terribly hungry now, waiting for my food which currently is being cooked. It'll be done anytime now... Cya!


LoVe~
MzP<3