Wakeup Calls

Yesterday was the bomb. And today was amazing.

We watched Batman last night. The Dark Knight. Well, there's only one word I can use to describe the movie: orgasmic. No kidding. And I'm not only talking about the countless hot men. I'm talking overall. It's so good. Too good to be true. Hollywood didn't let me down this time. And the joker? Let's just say he is so damn HOT!! Especially the part when he was walking down the street blasting things up with his big bad gun. You know how much I like bad men with big guns. Please go see it.

But well, someone didn't agree. Yo-yo boy thought the ending was, (how do I put it?) 'sakit hati'. Hello. If the movie had ended in any other way than it had, it would be less than the perfection it is right now. Utter perfection. And would you like to disagree with me on that one? Seriously. Why so serioussss?

Well, I missed the early part of the movie though. Julie. She told everyone the movie's at Sunway when it is actually at Summit. And she only realised her mistake when we reached Summit at 9pm, which is the time the movie starts. So we had to wait for them to come to Summit. We were 15 minutes late. Hilarious! But it's all good. An excuse to watch the movie again. Soon. Yay.

After that we went to Daruss. Betty had to go home early so it's only me, Julie, Diyana and Mizi. We made so much noise in Daruss. Especially Mizi (naturally). It was hilarious. I laughed till I cried and my tummy ached. And then some. After we got bored of Daruss, we went to nearby playground. Spent hours at the playground, taking pictures, playing on the swing and just lazing around. That was awesome. Full moon too. Were there until 3am when we finally decided to go home. After hundreds of pictures. Wished Betty could have joined us.

Night turned to morning. It started in the weirdest way possible. My padre calling me at 5am asking where I am! I was peacefully asleep on my nice comfortable bed. And he called. From his room.

Padre: Where are you?

Me: (Groggily) In the room.

Padre: What room?

Me: In my room. At home.

Padre: Where's your car?

Me: I parked at the side. Someone parked at my place.

Padre: Why aren't you asleep yet?

Me: (What is he talking about?) I am asleep. You called me so I woke up.

Padre: Sorry.


Ooookayyyyy. That was weird. What a way to start the day. The strangest wakeup call I've ever got. We were laughing about it after that. I still marvel at the hilarity of the situation. Padre didn't even check if I was in my room, which was less than 20 metres away from his.

So today Julie and I baked cupcakes. About a hundred small ones. Vanilla cupcakes with blueberry filling and cream cheese icing. The blueberry thing was just an experiment. But it worked out wonderfully. Beautifully. I'm craving for one just thinking about them. We also took lots of pictures in the process of making these cupcakes. Will be in Facebook soon I hope. They're so cute and pretty and yummy. You've got to try some. At least one. Troublesome though. So tiring that I was practically asleep when the last batch came out of the oven.

Out of the topic. A man is trying to fool me. What the hell does he take me for? Stupid? I thought he would think better than that. I may be young, hell a lot younger than him in fact. But one thing I'm not is stupid. I'm nobody's fool. I won't let him make me. The game is turning. This is my game, my rules.



LoVe~
MzP<3

Very Very Very Very VERY VERY Happy!

I am jumping for joy. I'm so happy, I'm going to explode into a million pieces. No, make that a zillion pieces.

It is not normal to feel this kind of happiness is it?

Why? I passed all my subjects. Well, I don't know for sure the exact grades or marks for each subject, I just know I didn't fail any. And that is superbly fantastically good enough for me.

I thought I was going to fail Spanish for sure. But I didn't! And the best part? I PASSED FINANCE!!!!! I'm not going to have to repeat a whole semester of dreadfulness again. I'm going to not kill myself. I'm going to live!! (OK, OK, this is a little exaggerating)

Life is finally good. It is good for today. And maybe this week. And I love it when life turns good. It is those rare once in a blue moon moments that I'm going to enjoy right to the end. So sue me.

I don't care about other stupid problems now. Whatever. Now they feel stupid. How could I have been depressed today, anyway? It's all good.

OK, it must be revolting to read about how happy I am. Shut up. Be happy for me. I deserve a break once in a while too. Anyway, I don't care what you think. I'm too happy to care. You might as well just kill me now. At least I'll die in a state of happiness.

The three E's. Elated. Ecstatic. Euphoric.

Lalala lala lalalala lala lalala.

OK, i'm gonna stop now.

Tata.


LoVe~
MzP<3

Beautiful

OK, I lied!

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We kissed. We did. Just a peck.

Once.

No, twice.

Can't stop thinking about him.

I'm crazy.

Nothing more though. Promise.

I can't contain my joy. Happy.

Elated.

Ecstatic.

Euphoric.

You see? I can't even hold it back for more than 24 hours.

I want to tell the world.

I feel tingly all over.

Like that song, Bubbly.

OMG. OMG. OMG.

Stupid cupid!

Save me, someone, before I get myself in too deep.

How the hell did this happen???

Giddiness...


LoVe~
MzP<3

Dating

Midvalley. That was so nice. It's like another mini EDC gathering. Kind of another Langkawi. I'm actually amazed at how I enjoy their company. I wasn't really a 'batch' person before. But I guess we've all grown up now. That's nice. It's like, they don't judge anymore.

I went on another date today. A late one. Parents didn't know... Shhh... But they are so going to kill me if I went out again. But in my defense, it was a 20 minute date. Doesn't count. But what's new to me? 3 dates in 2 days. What else is new? For the first time ever (And I mean EVER), I picked the guy up from his house. I really did. That never happened. Never ever ever. I mean, I never even give a damn about finding out where a guy lives, let alone actually pick him up.

Now we're 'dating'. Whatever that means. Dating. What exactly does it mean? He's just so cute, though. So scared to touch me, I don't know why. I'm too young? Don't want to give the wrong impression? Scared I might break? Or maybe scared I might accuse him of sexual harassment? That's another first for me. In my experience, guys would have some kind of physical contact on a first date. It's our 3rd date... and he just... shook my hand? And a hug. That's it. And he wouldn't even call it dating. Someone has a fear of commitment. Haha. It's not like I'm looking for any commitment anyway. Definitely not.

I better hit the sack now. It's kind of late. Not really, by my standards, but I haven't been sleeping early these past few days. Taking its toll on me now.

Good night.


LoVe~
MzP<3

Aries Again

So. Yeah. Update about the date. It actually went well. Better than I anticipated. Despite the fact he was an hour late. Whatever.

In fact, it went so well that he asked me out again. Tonight. Seriously.

So how was he like? Well, he's nice. Possibly too nice. One thing though: He's an Aries. OMG, another Aries. Gosh, I have so many Aries's in my life that I don't know what to make of it already. The stars are definitely sending a message across. I have lots of Aries boyfriends, crushes, my best friend (Iman) is an Aries, even my grandfather is an Aries. I know so many Aries's that I know almost to the tee what they are like. They are generally bad tempered. Or rather, a little proud. And they like to keep things to themselves until they can't take it anymore. Then, they explode. But a good thing about Aries? They are tame-able. And once they're tame, they make great partners.

But my point is: What are the chances that another Aries enters my life? The stars are seriously having fun with me.


LoVe~
MzP<3

Breakfast Date

I have a date. I have a date right now. Breakfast date. He's late. Oh well. Men.

Anyway, I'm nervous. What the hell do you talk about on a first date? And what the hell do you wear on a breakfast date, anyway? And most of all: what if he's so boring that I would drop dead before the date's even started. I mean, I can't leave because he'll be driving. Damn. Should have volunteered to drive. At least I'll have the choice of leaving anytime I want.

Details? He's 25. Says he's an investment consultant. Also says he's a pilot. I have no idea what to make of this. He's kind of... annoying the first few times I talked to him. Like, always trying to prove himself right. And trying to show how good he is. Eww... Like trying to sell himself. Cheesy. And the worst part, in my opinion, is that he actually liked the movie Made of Honor. You know, the movie I felt a strong dislike about that I wrote a whole blog post about it. The one titled Made of DIShonor. Oh well, I hope it goes beyond movies.

He's not here yet! This is bad. First date, bad impression. He'd better make it up with wit and great sense of humour. Or I might even walk home.

I'll just go and wait for him downstairs. Wish me luck!


LoVe~
MzP<3

p.s. My 100th post! Wow. Never thought I'd get this far in blogging.

Cutting Socks

I'm supposed to have a dinner date tonight. Well, but the guy had something to do. And I can't reach another guy because when he gave me his number on MSN, I was too busy talking on the phone with another guy to remember saving his number.

So no dinner date tonight. Instead I've got a breakfast date. At 10 a.m. tomorrow morning. Aww, that's like dawn or something. Apparently this guy's a morning person.

Something happened last night. It's supposed to be bad. One of the worse things to have happen to me. But strangely, I feel nothing. No guilt. I feel empty. That sucks. I need time. I need time to feel it all over again. But currently, eventhough it is 100% my fault (hey, I'm not going to divide blames here), I feel very OK. Not guilty. Am I even human, still? I have no idea.

I love MSN webcam and video calls. They're sexy. Well, when the person at the other end is sexy. Haha.

I am totally not well. I'm starting to hate men and the positions they put me in (Hey, hey, I didn't mean this in a dirty way!). I only want one men to contact me right now. But I don't think he's interested. Oh well. He's just another guy. Plus, I don't think he's all that hot anymore. Not as hot as he was 2 years ago. When he had abs. Well, yes, I would date a guy only for his body. I would. OK, now that sounds shallow. But I wouldn't lie to you. I would.

Anyway. Try to say this really fast for ten times:

I'm a sock cutter. I cut socks.

Hahahahahaha. OK, it worked, didn't it?

I feel like baking cupcakes again. But I want a proper oven. Damn. This sucks. I want cupcakes!!! I want them. I want them. I want them.


Love~
MzP<3

Men Movies

I've been blogging alot lately. But someone hasn't been. Wish he would.

The truth is I've been worried. Very very very worried. My results are coming out soon. If it's not already out. Hold on, let me check.

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Okay. That was a disaster. I have no idea if my results are out yet. Something about not being able to see my results because fees not paid yet. Well, maybe the results are not out yet and there's some kind of glitch in the computer system (Haha... I wish).

So I'm going to have to wait for the results. Not that I mind too much. Haha. I really don't want to know my Finance result. Fail? Maybe. I really really hope not. I enrolled next semester's classes already. Sucks if I have to change. Not to mention, going another semester doing Finance could very well be pure torture.

So how have I been lately? Not too well. Something is going wrong in my stars or something lately because, well, men are around. Lots of men. I seriously think my star sign is making me seem particularly irresistible this week. Or month. This type of thing can't possibly be natural. Oh, but I'm trying to enjoy it. At least until Sydney again when I'll be normal again. I know things like this don't last. And I hope when it ends, it wouldn't be too bad. Oh, look at that. My iTunes pick this time to play It's Raining Men. Of all times. See what I mean when I say this is the stars' doing. Maybe it's cause I wished on ALOT of shooting stars in Langkawi. Hmm... Possible.

So, anyway. Just the other day I was on Facebook. You know the '10 Second Interview' application? Yea, they asked a question that got me thinking:

In a movie version of your life, who would play you?

I was like, yea, who would play me? Answered Jessica Alba. Well, I know she's sexy and all. Beautiful. Skinny. And I also can't stand her. But amongst Hollywood stars I know? Jessica Alba it is. I mean, who else? Did I mention I can't stand her?

So who do you think should play me? I mean who better than Jessica Alba. Eva Longoria? Sophia Bush? Lindsay Lohan? Beats me. Wait, I know: Aishwarya Rai. Hahaha... But other than that, I have no idea.

OK, I understand this is not a life or death question or anything. Truth is: I'm avoiding something. I'm avoiding a hell of a lot of things. So that's how I deal with it: I think of something not important. Hey, the trick about life is to make it look easy, right?



LoVe~
MzP<3>

Because Of You

I. Am. Going. Crazy.

Been 24 hours since I got off that bus. But I'm still thinking about it.

It's like Ne-Yo's song Because of You. Fits what I'm feeling. Especially the 2nd verse.


It's about a guy, sure. But a guy I'm really really really not supposed to be thinking about. No, not Isa.

Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

And it’s all because of you
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave

I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

And it’s all because of you (all because of you)
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Ain’t no doubt, so strung out
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug

Listening to the song right now. Funny thing is: I never liked the song before. Nope, never. Because I never understood. I mean, sure, I've felt lust before but never in the way Ne-Yo describes it in the song. Never, until now.

Now I understand. Especially, "Think of it every second, I can't get nothing done. Only concern is the next time I'm gonna get me some." Well, 'getting me some' is against my principles. Against myself.

And no, no. It has got nothing to do with love. I bet you don't know what it's like. I bet you'll judge. I bet you won't believe me when I say I can't help myself. I can't.

Problem: He's not that hot. I prefer Isa. Still can't get it out of my mind though. And I 'like the way it feels'.


LoVe~
MzP<3

What Happened in Langkawi

...Stays in Langkawi?

Wow. Cute.

Langkawi was... AWESOME to say the least. But I am back in KL. Back to life... And we agreed that was the hardest part.

Let's see. There's this guy... A guy I've been putting around in these pages for quite some time, some time ago. Someone I've been crushin' (I have a problem with g's lately. From watchin' Katherine Heigl on Grey's Anatomy too much) on for ages and ages. And he turns up in Langkawi. In a bar. Tipsy. And very very HOT. That was the time of my life. Ended with a hug. Which smelled good. Which stayed in my head. Until now.

I want to preserve the feeling forever and ever and ever.

"Who are you looking for?"

"Umm... I dunno."

"You?"

"Isa."

And just like that. Just like that. Wow.

Made Langkawi perfect. Well, just about perfect.

If not for a mistake. Mistakes happen. Shit happens. But this mistake is good and bad at the same time. Mostly bad. Can't get it out of my mind. But do I regret it? Hell no. Hell no.

So what happened in Langkawi... stays in Langkawi. In the head. In the fingers. In my fingers...

And the muscle memory... The one at the tip of my fingers... That... OMG. Can I have a second dose? A third one? A pill that is just so addictive. Can't get away. The best mistake I've ever made. Again, please. Just one more time. And another time. And another.

And yet the thought of it makes me... hurl. And whirl. And left me wanting more. Just like a pill.

How is it when you've tasted something so good, you go back to normal food? How do you crave the normal things ever again? Tell me quick so I can go back.

But it stays there. In Langkawi.


Love~
MzP<3