Men and Me

Yes, it's 5.20a.m. and I can't sleep. Again. Oh well. But I finished my Stats online quiz. And am halfway through my finance online assignment. Almost done with my ISYS assignment too. Yay me!

OK, instead of sleeping right now, I'm filled with thoughts of... men. Men. What's up with them that is so darn irresistible? Especially lately. And what's up with me (and possibly everyone else out there) falling for someone I know I can never have?! Like, never. In a million years. But actually, when you think about it, men are just glorified jerks. So falling for them is just as much my fault as it is theirs, I guess. But still. Even if I do acknowledge them as glorified jerks which are mostly overrated, I find what they 'have' won't get me to date a woman anytime soon (If you know what I mean).

And yet, its not just what they have right? It's what they do. It's how they look. It's how they feel. It's that one time when they do something not remotely jerk-like. And that's the point where I fall head over heels.

So what's this about falling for a guy I can never have? Well, let me paint the picture for you. I'd fallen for a guy who's in a serious relationship before. A guy who will never see me as his type, a guy who's practically against the rules for me to date, a guy who is a hardcore bad guy, and of course a gay guy. Which you probably already know from one of my previous post. Yes, and that's not including movie stars and celebrities, because, well, we all know where that will end up. And now, I've fallen yet again for a guy I can't have. And this time, it's because he's not exactly emotionally available. Oh, kill me now.

Let's see, to not confuse myself, I'll come up with a list. A list of what I don't want in a guy. I've had plenty of lists of what I want in a guy, so now I'll go the other way. A list of things which if I see them in a guy, I'll just cross them out. So, list begins.

What I don't want my guy to be:

1. Short. Or to put it more politely, someone who's... physically challenged. Has to be taller than me.
2. Fat. If guys can be selective about the weight of girls they want to date, so can I. So hit the gym. No low muscle ratios either.
3. Too skinny. Rockstar thin is as far as I go. If you're skinnier than me, with virtually no muscles at all, no way, Jose.
4. Slouchy. A slouch shows laziness, mostly. And someone who doesn't know how to carry themselves with pride.
5. Girly. I'm the girl here. Always. Always. Always. (And if I'd wanted a girl, I'd date one)
6. Egoistic to the point of cocky. Hello. I'm the princess. Not just some ego-booster.
7. Too nice. Trust me, I'll just end up bullying you. I want someone who'll bite back when I bite. (Not that way, you pervert).
8. Broke. I ain't sayin' I'm a gold digger. But I ain't messin' with no broke.
9. Stupid. This is a no-brainer (pardon the pun). I need someone who can have conversations with me. Good conversations.
10. Young. Well, I dated someone younger before. And I do not want to repeat the experience. Once is one too many, thanks.

OK, yes, the list is not finished yet. I'll get it done in later posts.

Bye bye.

Good night. Or rather, good morning.


LoVe~
MzP<3

How Much My Life Suck Right Now.

Let's see, I have a Stats GNAT due tomorrow, a finance online assignment due Wednesday morning, a STAT group assignment due Wednesday morning, an ISYS assignment due Wednesday night, Finance test on Thursday, a STAT practical exam next week, an ISYS practical exam next week, a Spanish exam next week, Spanish oral test next week, and of course, a spanish online oral tarea due yesterday. On top of it all, I still don't have a partner to do my Spanish oral exam with. Well, on a scale of one to ten on how crazy this week is: 20!!! You can't even imagine.

OK, so how much does my life suck?

VERY much.


LoVe~
MzP<3

Made of Dishonor

So. I went to watch Made of Honor today. The amazing part is when we actually get a chance to see Patrick Dempsey juggle. I see he's still got his touch! Eventhough he's old and stuff. I mean, wow. He's just still got it pretty good. But (There's a but). It is the only thing in the film I actually enjoyed. I mean the only thing. Frankly, the movie was a disaster by my standards. Halfway through the movie, I was thinking, "What the hell am I still doing here?" And I still stayed just to see if the ending was worth it. And guess what? If I thought it was awful halfway, I thought it was disastrous after watching the ending. I mean it. I kept rolling my eyes! It's so ridiculously predictable, (and ridiculous) and just so unrealistic. It's soooooo unoriginal, I wonder if it will get sued for copyright infringement by 100 other movie producers.

My conclusion is: I wasted 12 bucks (OZ dollars!) for something that isn't even worth buying a pirated DVD for. Am I missing something here? Is Hollywood really just laying around, collecting money from people who just go to watch a bunch of actors, not even slightly bothering to give us sufficient entertainment while at it?

And Patrick Dempsey, you looked like a fool in the movie (Except the juggling part, that was pretty cool). I mean, you're a great actor and all, but the movie just ruins you. Big time. Especially after the big hit with Enchanted. Even superb acting skills could not bring the plot alive. I was searching for a stick to poke the plot with just to see if it's still alive.

Oh , and I don't even want to write about the other characters. Which most was severely underdeveloped and served no purpose for the plot at all. Enough said.

So. Please don't spend that ridiculous amount of time and money to pay for the ticket. Rent a DVD if you want to see Patrick Dempsey so much. But if you can live without it, well, just go on.

*Sigh* You know what? I never see myself as someone who thrives on vicious criticism, but sorry guys, this just tested my limits. After feeling my IQ drop down a couple of points watching this film, I think it deserves every word I wrote up there. Sorry if I offended anyone who loved the movie sooo much (Ehem-Losers-ehem) or love Patrick Dempsey (actually, he is hot) or is Patrick Dempsey himself (Umm... hi? Can I have an autograph?).

OK, so ends this post about how much I hate Made of Honor. Oh, maybe 'hate' is such a strong word. I dislike the movie. A lot.


Love~
MzP<3 style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">p.s. I know I could've come up with a wittier title for this post. But the after-effects of the movie are still preventing from the full restoration of my IQ. Sorry to disappoint!

A Nostalgic Night

It's 2.25 in the morning and I am wide awake. I mean, I slept but I just woke up, not being able to sleep anymore. Slept at 10 30 today, thinking, all this while I've been sleeping too late, and I'd like to try to get my body clock used to early nights again. And early mornings.

But I woke up 5 minutes ago, very wide awake. Not my intention. When I said early mornings, I didn't mean this early. I know if I start functioning this early in the morning. I'd be so tired by tomorrow afternoon, and I'm trying hard to avoid afternoon naps.

So I'm up. And weirdly enough, takbir raya suddenly appeared in my head and got stuck there, and you know how nostalgic takbir raya can be. It's when you think of happy times during raya. It's when I think of my late grandmother. And the beautiful old house she owned. Her superb cooking. She cooking in the kitchen. Feeding me food with her own hands. Watering her plants very very early in the morning before anyone else woke up. Me waking up early to see her outside, with the early birds chirping merrily and the cocks crowing. Can you imagine that was KL back then? Birds chirping in KL! When's the last time you heard that? At least 10 years ago.

OMG, how old have I become. That was 10 years ago? 10 years seem like an eternity, but when you remember it, it's still so fresh in your mind, it's like it happened last week.

I was 13 when she passed away. And I got the news in the worst way, in the dining hall of my boarding school, on a piece of paper that gives me 'permission' to go home. The paper was an official admin paper, for students who lost their outing book or want to go home immediately. When I got the paper, I was thinking, why am I given permission to go home? So I looked under the 'Reason' box, and it says: Nenek meninggal dunia. Translation: Grandmother passed away. This happened in the Dining Hall. Where we were supposed to eat. And is where everyone, the whole school, is for lunch. So yes, I cried practically in front of the whole school.

OK, I'm going to stop being all nostalgic and ruining everyone's moods. Have I ever told you how I got lost in my boarding school? I mean, I didn't get lost. But no one can find me for like a few hours. And the funny part is, I was sitting somewhere open, not hiding, and the whole school was looking for me. But, that's for my next post, next time.

Muax. Wish me luck with my sleeping problem!


LoVe~
MzP<3>

Of Boredness of the Mind

Have I ever mentioned about the crush I have on a tutor of mine? OMG, he is hot! Really. OK, I'm supposed to be concentrating in class, but instead, I'll be staring at him. Let's just hope he doesn't read this, right? Hehe.

So... since my last post, I've slept. Then I woke up. Nothing interesting there. Except if I tell you that I overslept. Then missed my class. But oh well, that's quite normal on Thursdays.

I have been watching lonelygirl15 videos all day, eventhough I know I shouldn't. Can't help it. It's seriously boring and pointless, but I'm still watching them. Stop me, someone. Anyone?

I watched Gossip Girl online too. All 17 episodes. It's sooo interesting. All the drama. Can't wait for the season finale.

Now, I seriously need to get to uni and catch up on my work. And maybe go MQ centre and get myself some Boost. Haven't eaten anything yet today. Don't worry, I'm not going to be anorexic, I promise. So... what should I eat? Rice? Pasta? Chicken? Sooo lazy to cook for myself. Does anybody want to come around? I'll cook for you too!

So yea, I better get cooking, or get going to uni. Bye.

You know you love me,
xoxo.


LoVe~
MzP<3

Living Under One Roof

I'm feeling quite (how do I put this nicely?)... pissed at a housemate of mine. Really. Want to know why? Because this particular person doesn't know proper etiquette of sharing a house with other people. OK, let me explain.

When I first moved in this unit, I noticed that all my housemates are Chinese, so I understand that the food they eat or cook is not always halal. Fine. So I went out and bought some spoons, forks, knives, pans etc. And a couple of mugs because of the lack of mugs in the house. I do tell my housemates of my dietary requirements and they understand and respect it quite well... except for this one person. This person started using some of my stuff. OK, I didn't mind at first, as we all do share when we need it. It gets worse when she uses everything i had. OK, still, I was still OK with it. Then, she uses them with non-halal food. Whatever, I thought, as long as she doesn't use it to eat pork with, and clean it properly after using them.

Then comes the problem. She started well enough, just minorly irking me by doing all those stuff mentioned above. But oh well, we all get annoyed with our housemates at some point, right? Then, she gets worse. OK, what's the rule of borrowing kitchen appliances? To wash them after you use it, as cleanly as possible. Oh yea, she did wash the stuff she uses... about a month later!!!! No kidding. And I'm not even exaggerating. At first it started with a few days. And then it prolongs to a week. And then, several weeks. So my dirty dishes would sit in the sink for several weeks, waiting to be washed by her. But, the worst worst worst part of it all, is that if I have 3 spoons, she'll use one, put it in the sink, use the other one next time, put it in the sink, and then use the 3rd one the next time, without washing any of the first 2, and then leave it in the sink. Then, when I, the owner of the spoons want to use one, I'll find them all unwashed in the sink or on the table somewhere. Doesn't only happen to spoons. Also to my forks, my mugs, my pans, my chopsticks. You name it. So much so that when I'm desperate enough, I'll have to wash some stuff for her just to use something that's mine.

Don't you feel like killing a housemate like that? Even as I write this, there are some of my stuff in the sink downstairs and on the table, waiting to be washed. These days, I even hide a mug in my room so that I'll have a mug when I need it. And a spoon too. But my other mug and spoon is, predictably, in the kitchen sink.

I even have some other things I'm pissed off with her. But that'll have to wait for another time and place.

Oh, and I'll admit I have a problem with excessive spending these days. For grocery, of all things. So now, I'm broke, with too much food that there's no room in the refrigerator. Food I don't even know when I'll find the time to eat.

Ummm.... Wanna come over for dinner? I'll cook.



LoVe~
MzP<3

Negative Notes

Quite an achievement I got today. I ate!!! I mean, literally eat. I mean... well, I ate something other than a chocolate bar or a donut or a cup of yoghurt. I mean, yea. Big achievement, huh. It means I might not become anorexic. Eventhough I still feel some point of regret in the pit of my stomach. Another achievement for today? I slept for 5 hours! Yay. Great.

I finally feel a little bit better. But you guys might not understand why I don't sleep or eat lately. It's because... well... it makes me feel good that way. I don't feel lazy or stupid or useless. That's good.

So.... BF/exBF and me are currently off. For a long time I hope. Or for good. I'm just so sick of him and his constant insecurity against me. Well, there's more to the story than that, but right now, I'm hating him. And his constant phone calls which I don't pick up because all he does is shout. When a relationship gets too stressful and painful like this, I say, it's about time. To end it.

OK, I feel this post is so.... negative. Didn't mean it that way. I wanted to write more, but continuing in this condition is going to make this post really boring and negative. Let's continue on a happier note. So I'll write the next time I feel cheery-er. OK?

Muax.


LoVe~
MzP<3

11 May 2008

I want to blog about today, not because it's interesting for people to read or because I just feel like it. I want to blog about today because I want to remember it. Yes. Nothing special about today, but I just want to remember it. This weekend, I felt really heavy about going to the city again. But Eiman told me that he had a few events planned up if I'm going. So I ended up going anyway. To turn up at the city with Eiman having to work instead, and being lazy to go to a party thing. I felt... quite pointless really that I went, reluctantly, all the way.

So I spent the night at Bligh once again. On Saturday, having a nice dinner at KFC. Wicked Wings! Going back, getting to watch Gossip Girl episodes from 8 to 12. Wow. GG rocks! So Saturday was... OK. Just OK.

Then it was Sunday. Which is actually today, bar 1 hour ago. So before I went back, they (Ramen, Mad, Yaya and Yamud) decided to go to China Town. Unplanned trip. Well, we ended up eating at Pepper Lunch for dinner. That was nice. Yaya said the 'salmon' was gooood. Haha. Inside joke. So then we (meaning me) have a small craving for Krispy Kreme so we walked across the street and got donuts and coffee. Talking, joking, generally hanging out. And then, they all ended up persuading me to watch a movie with them. Meaning I might miss my bus and the... umm... 'thing' I have to do and send in. So I did. Totally unplanned. Watched When in Vegas. The one with Cameron Diaz and Ashton Kutcher. We took lot's of pictures before the movie. And that was a laugh. (Oh, and did I tell you my Finance tutor reminds me of Ashton? Like, yea. And you were wondering why I'm sucking in Econs. But my crush on him is a different story altogether.)

Yamud asked if it was worth it. I said, well, yea. Kinda. Then we went to the arcade place next door. Took pictures, played Time Crisis, and also, of course, Daytona. The boys got me to play Daytona with them. And naturally, I won. Haha. Didn't say I didn't warn them already.

So then, I suggested we go QVB just to check if I missed the last bus. And I didn't! So they waited 15 mins with me... awww... so sweet. So yes, I'm in the comfort of my room, on my bed, writing this post about a simple unplanned night I don't want to forget. It was laid back and simple and the best. And the fact that we had no expectations, made the night well beyond our, well, expectations. So I'd definitely do another unplanned night with them again.

Oh, and by the way, I did this quiz on Yaya's computer this morning. Unbelievably, I'm Chuck Bass??? Wow. I'd expected Blair, or something. But well, maybe my bitchy streak is showing more and more. Which is good, in a way. So, I'm Chuck Bass.

Which Gossip Girl Character Are You?

You know you love me.

XOXO.


LoVe~
MzP<3>

The Lazy Virus

Yes, I haven't blogged for a while now. Okay Okay. Cut me some slack. Oh well. I've got some good news though. I mean good news for you, not for me. Life sucks. My life, that is. Ever since I've been back from Malaysia, I've been struck by the lazy virus. I'm telling you. True. You know how they say Malaysians are lazy? Well, I have a theory that it's caused by this virus. The lazy virus. Ever since I've been back, I've been incredibly lazy to do anything. Lazy to do assignments, lazy to go to classes, lazy to clean my room, lazy to cook, and even too lazy to eat. Seriously. I've been too lazy to eat. So much so that I eat only a bar of chocolate or some yoghurt a day. So if I don't lose weight yet, I don't know.

So all that made me depressed. No kidding. I'm so depressed because... well... who knows why they're depressed anyway. But all I know is, I didn't do a few assignments and I'm damn scared of failing. Not to mention my finance subject is going down the drain. I know how to do the questions, but I never seem to get any good marks.

But you know what? I think my depression is dissipating slowly. and the point where it started to be better is when I 'found' my diary again. Well, I don't mean diary as in, personal journal, I mean diary as in planner. Yes, I've been too lazy to use it, but ever since I 'found' it again, I feel the depression slowly ease off me. Wow. I didn't realise I'm the type of girl to rel on a planner. I used to wonder how people rely so much on a planner. But I guess now I know. I felt much better as my pen made contact with the little date columns, writing down my plans for the rest of the week. It made me feel so good that I actually cooked tonight. Like for my housemates too. Like, wow. So that constitutes my first meal of the week. Baked golden chicken with pasta alfredo and coleslaw. No kidding. It was good. I have some leftover though, so I'm thinking about bringing it to Bligh on the weekend.

Okay, you caught me. I have been going to the city every week. And eventhough I didn't plan to go this week, I know I'll somehow end up there. specially since Eiman already told me he's got plans for me already. Oh, and yea, he's been taking on the role of being my social planner.

As for pictures... sorry guys, no pictures today. I left my camera's wire thing in Malaysia. So I haven't been able to transfer my pictures in from my camera to my laptop. Oh well, don't worry, no good pictures anyway. I don't really document my life on camera these days.

And did I tell you how I've been so involved in watching videos on the internet? Like:
1. Lonelygirl15
2. Gossip Girl
3. Grey's Anatomy
4. Heroes

And I've been sleeping late because of them. Not my fault. Streaming is only fast at night! When everyone else is sleeping. But I do try to sleep earlier than 4 a.m. these days Promise.

Okay, got to go. Nature's calling.


LoVe~
MzP<3