17 December 2009

Butterflies and Hurricanes

I'm back from Dubai. Back in KL. Home sweet home.

Dubai was awesome. The amount of shopping I did there is, like, the most I've done, ever. And right now I'm obsessed with a few brand names. Totally obsessed.

First brand: Desigual. Oh MY GOD, that brand is awesome. It's very, shall I say, different. Colourful. Hippie in a sense, but also vividly cool. It's this brand from Spain. I have this amazing attraction towards their designs. Some of them are just so... 'Me' that I feel like I have to own them. Soon. One day. Hehe. And their motto is, aptly, "No es lo mismo" - "It's not the same."

Next obsession: Kurt Geiger. Oh well, what girl would I be if I'm not totally obsessed with shoes..?? So yes, Kurt Geiger is, to me, the ultimate shoe store. Well, Ultimate affordable shoe store. Never have I ever seen so many AWESOME shoes all contained in one store. I honestly feel that 80% of my shoe cravings could be satisfied by this store alone. And trust me, that's saying a lot. Pink stilettos, with gold heels, anyone?

My other newly acquired obsession is for... Jane Norman. The ultimate party wear. Your first impression of hitting the store would be: Pink!! So yes, that was the primary thing that attracted me. Their girls night out collection is just so complete. And, well, awesome. Something I would definitely wear. And would love wearing. I have yet to acquire anything from this store, though. *sigh* Someday. Someday.


So anyway. I am in KL tired and very jet lagged. So it's one of those days where the bed is my only friend. And thanks to technological advancements, even a day in bed could turn out into an educational 'journey'. (OK, I was surfing the internet while lying on my bed).

So I was surfing, and I stumbled upon the Ramsey unsolved murder case. You know, the murder of JonBenet Ramsey, the 6 year old beauty pageant whose body was found in the basement of her own house.

Well, I heard about it a few years ago, but it's only now that I actually really read about it. It's very interesting, a murder that was masked as a kidnapping. As in, a true kidnapper would not write a 3 page ransom note, would they?

The case was in 1996, after Christmas. It still remained unsolved. But the case was reopened this year, February (2009).

Initially, when her body was found, the main suspect (and splashed all over the media) was the little girl's parents. The police believed that their parents did it because, first, it was strange to find a ransom note, and then the body of the girl in her own house the next day. In fact, they believed it so much that they wasted valuable time they could have spent chasing down the real murderer, but instead, interrogated the parents repeatedly, and tried really hard to find evidence to proof it's them. Also, getting the public to believe them by leaking reports to local media.

Okay, what I wrote could be found on the internet, through many sources, including a handwriting analysis of the ransom note by a graphologist. My personal opinion is different.

The thing I really believe is that the parents didn't do it. That the police looked at it from a different angle. Instead of a kidnapping which turned into a murder, the police should have realised that the ransom note is a cover of the murder, to stall them from finding the body. The note said that the kidnapper was going to call the next day. So instead of looking for a body, or inspecting the entire house thoroughly, they waited for the phone call, which never came.

And only when the phone call never came, did they actually really inspected the whole house, and found her body, in the basement.

Seriously, it is just too obvious that the parents didn't do it. Why? Because if they really wanted to kill their own child, they would have been clever enough to get rid of the body somewhere really far and then report her missing. Inviting police to come over and inspect their whole house is just not what a murderer would do if they know that the body is in that house. I mean, in the frenzy of panic after murdering someone, wouldn't the first thing that comes to mind is to cover up your tracks? Especially if it's the first time, since the parents didn't have any criminal record.

So yes, my belief was confirmed because when they reopened the case this year, by using so much more advanced DNA analysis, they found out without doubt that the parents didn't do it. Which was when the police department wrote an official apology note to the Ramsey's. See?

What I'm pretty weirded out by, is that I have this feeling that the parents somehow knew who the murderer was, but are not telling. Or at least, they subconciously has someone in mind but is not letting on. The thing is, the murderer demonstrated in the note that he/she knows the Ramsey's too well, including how much the father's bonus was that year.

And so, why are the parents not saying anything. I was thinking and thinking. There's only two reasons: first, that person is of someone close, possibly a family member. Or, they could be someone with power, or standing. In both cases, the parents would not want to jump the gun and point fingers where they might not be right, and get the person in unnecessary trouble. However, I think the second one is more possible, that is, someone with considerable power. Perhaps even someone with religious standing, and someone who's helped out the family a few times. These are the ones you surely wouldn't want to piss off, especially if you're not 100% sure about it. I mean, imagine the situation. If you knew, say, 60% that it is done by (only for example) a religious teacher. I would say, some people would not let this suspicion on. Why? Because the risk of being wrong, and attacking someone like that, is too great. But then again, that's just my personal opinion. I have heard stories about religious people molesting and raping children and stuff, and instead of their parents reporting it, they just turn a blind eye and let it happen.

So I read the autopsy report: Or at least part of it, anyway. I've come to the conclusion that the murderer is left-handed. Why? Because too many of the injuries happen on the right side of her body. And from the back, on the left side. See, if the girl screamed, and then the murderer panicked, and then he reached for the nearest heavy object he found, he would do it with the hand he is most used to. She was hit on the right side of her head. So the only explanation is: he's left handed.


So anyway, its 3.30am, and I'm off to bed now. Or at least trying to, given my level of jet lag-gedness.

I'm pretty much very interested in the Ramsey case, but all that is just my opinion. I know it could all be wrong anyway. But well, it's logical to me. Just give it a read.

Good night.

Fights and battles have begun
Revenge will surely come
Your hard times are ahead

LoVe~
MzP<3>

26 November 2009

Get The Party Started!

Yesterday was total prove that when I study alot and don't sleep enough, I'll do worse in an exam than if I don't finish studying and sleep early. Oh God. My easiest paper just turned into the hardest.

Anyway.



EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Oh, so when's the party, right? Hehe. Everyday. Started last night.



The only thing is, I have been recently diagnosed with kidney infection. Which is potentially serious, actually. The pain is unbearable! Was, actually. Pain is manageable now. It's called Pyelonephritis, if you'd like to read about it. I'm on antibiotics now. And I have another doctor's appointment in an hour's time.


Other developments? I'm bored! Hehe. Yea, my days are all booked. From yesterday all the way till 5th December. Then, home, I'll go!!! Yay!!!

Get the party started on a Saturday night
Everybody's waiting for me to arrive
Sending out the message to all of my friends
We'll be looking flashy in my Mercedes Benz
I got lots of style, check my gold diamond rings
I can go for miles if you know what I mean

Making my connection as I enter the room
Everybody's chilling as I set up the groove
Pumping up the volume with this brand new beat
Everybody's dancing and they're dancing for me
I'm your operator, you can call anytime
I'll be your connection to the party line



LoVe~
MzP<3>

12 November 2009

Single

So it's like this. People now know I'm single.

Well, let's just say I kind of missed the time they didn't.

Guys are around me. Again. And trust me when I say, I'm not bragging, I'm pretty much complaining.


Why? Cos guys can't really take no for an answer. They hang around, expecting something. Some of them want a relationship, and some just wanna get in my pants.

I don't want both. (And one of them even has a girlfriend!)


I'm keeping this single status for now. And for as long as I can.

Being single is like a breath of fresh air. Being free. And since I haven't been single in a LOOOONG time, it's a refreshing change.


Sooo. Exams are coming up. Shit. I'm screwed. Promise me: DON'T ask for my results when they come out. Promise?


Oh, and you know what's the best part of being single? I can really be Gavin's biggest fan. The Gav, with the abs. Best abs I've ever seen. Like, EVER. Yes, can't even compare to the magazine models. I'm bloody serious. No one believes me though. Seriously, why would anyone question my abs judging abilities is beyond me. Cos you will never find someone who likes abdominal muscles more than I do. Really.

I think abs are the most important muscles in a guy. Then, shoulders probably. And then, biceps and triceps. A guy with awesome biceps don't get a second look if he doesn't have abs. Well, to me anyway. So yes, start working on those abs.


So anyway, I'll be celebrating being single a bit more. Yay!


Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm trading places
Right now a star's in the ascendant



LoVe~
MzP<3>

31 October 2009

Saturday Night

Today is Saturday.

Happy Halloween!!!


3 Parties today. I don't mean I'm invited to three, I mean I'm going to three. Crazy huh? Haha.

Today is also the day. The day I would find out a few things. And also do a few things.


The Halloween cruise last Wednesday was bloody awesome. It's not just the cruise, but more of the after party. At Armain's apartment, in the city. OMG, it was LEGENDARY. Hehe.

His apartment had the best view ever. They had a projector for a TV. 3TB worth of videos and music. And they have a swimming pool and jacuzzi at the top floor. Imagine that.

Naturally, the swimming pool and jacuzzi is closed at night, but all of us actually climbed over the gate. We watched the amazing view.

Ali threw me in the pool. In my catwoman suit. Seriously. But that's alright, since that was when they all decided to strip down to their underwear and get in the jacuzzi.

For 20 minutes. Then someone came and chased us out. Well, not literally. They made a bargain instead: We get out of the pool, they open the bar. Just for us!! No, I'm serious.

So we got out, dressed up (I had to borrow someone's girlfriend's clothes cos my costume was all wet), and we headed to the bar. Where, naturally, everyone got more drunk.

Party ends when we all decided to grab a bite in Macca's. So Macca's we went, where I had probably the best fries I've ever tasted. And then we all got taxis home.

Awesome night.


There will be a sequel tonight. Same place. Can't wait!


And remember my previous fascination with German guys? Well... Hahaha. Goes without saying, doesn't it?


OK, so I'm off now. My day is starting soon.

Oh, and I did get the bowls for my fishes, Emilio and Valentino. Big wine glasses. They look divine.

Yes, the wine glasses are pretty expensive. Well, my fishes are low maintenance, but I'm not!


Everywhere I go, somebody I know,
Wants to come and kick it with me
Saturday night and we're gonna have a party!



LoVe~
MzP<3

23 October 2009

Somewhere I Belong

For the first time in my life, ever, I finally feel at home.

Two years in Australia made me feel so much more at home than 20 years in Malaysia. Funny, and weird but true.

And this fact I just realised today.

After all those years for feeling like I never quite belonged anywhere, this is a refreshing revelation.

This is me. The way I am. Who I am. And I like it immensely. No, I love it.



And guess what? I can now listen to 'our' song and not burst into tears anymore. In fact it's playing right now, and eventhough I could recall the sweet memories, I do not long for it anymore. I could finally smile at the memories. Smile because they happened.

And maybe someday, I would like to fall deeply and undeniably in love again. I would wait for that time to come, and this time I would embrace it without hesitation.



Anyhow. Have we all know about my beloved Emilio? *Squealing in delight*

Yes, he's my male Siamese fighting fish I keep in a bourbon bowl on my bedside table. I love my Emilio. I named him after Emilio Pucci for his colours remind me of Pucci's designs.

And yesterday, I found a fighting fish so beautiful, I could not ever imagine not having him. His colours are of nice pink and white beautifully coloured to resemble a soft alluring floral silk dress. He's so beautiful, I knew I had to have him there and then. I knew I can't sleep until I have him.

We stood there in the shop for about an hour coming up with a name for him. Names like Lagerfeld, Gianni, Oscar, Alexander and lots of other designers came up. But of course only one name suits him Valentino.

And I would say that he is as exquisite as a Valentino gown. maybe even more so.


And today, I will own him. And he will be Emilio's new friend. Or maybe the appropriate word is 'buddy' since fighting fish don't need or want friends.

And even Sandrine found a gorgeous bright red one. One she wants to name Hercules.

I really hope we both will have a fish when we leave today.


Yes, did I tell you? We're getting my beloved Valentino today!!!!




Oh, so and what happened to the Hot Chocolate at 10am? Wow. I swear it put me in a good mood the whole day. I was practically singing!!

But that night, things took a turn. Which is keeping me very very disturbed. I have noooo idea what is happening. Or if anything is happening. I'm just confused. Very. At least give me a sign!


I will never know myself until I do this on my own
Cuz I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today



LoVe~
MzP<3

21 October 2009

3

Have you heard Britney's new song, 3? It's my ringtone right now, but seriously that was before I found out it's about a threesome. Tempted to change, but let's just keep it for the fun of it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not promoting threesomes. Plus a friend of mine said to never do it because you'd feel like shit the next day. And this coming from a person who would try just about anything. So yes, don't try threesome, kids.

Despite whatever happens in Gossip Girl series. (Yes, there's going to be a threesome! And no, it does not involve Chuck or Blair or, surprisingly, Georgina)


So lots have happened since my last post.


Life has gotten thoroughly better.

I like the fact that some people still don't know about the breakup. Feels kind of subtle and nice. I mean, at least people don't think it's real. Yet. I find that amusing.

And also a good thing. As I'm swearing off men for abit, I find it totally convenient that men are not around. Relieved.

But I have been busy with my friends. Everyday is like an adventure these days, that if I get out of my house, I won't get home until at least midnight. There's always something to do, someone to see. Keeps me busy.




Well, secretly, there is someone. Secretly. But it's just a harmless crush. Nothing more. Very high school, actually. Kind of like admiring someone from afar but not getting up the courage to talk to him. Rebound? I don't think so. Because all it is, is that I enjoy his company. Nothing more, nothing less. I told you, very high school.

Being reminded of high school is not too bad either... A simple innocent bout of infatuation. It's nice.


Hot chocolate at 10am. Sounds good? Yay or nay?


Ah, no matter. This thing won't last long. It's just a question of eliminating 'What if' you know?


Three is charm
Two is not the same
I don't see the harm
So are you game?


LoVe~
MzP<3

10 October 2009

Stranger

I would admit, I have been thinking abit to much about him. I have been bursting into tears at very random moments, which doesn't even seem appropriate.

So then last night, I finally heard the voice mail he left me on my phone. The night when he came to apologize but left, and then proceeded to call me endlessly, where each time I picked up the phone he gave me another bunch of stupid reasons and excuses. This resulted in 100++ missed calls. And about 5 voice mail messages.

So I called my mailbox, and got jolted harshly back to reality. Then I realised what I should have realised ages ago: He is NOT the same guy i fell in love with. The person I'm missing might as well be dead.

What jolted me was the amount of the word fuck he could use in 3 seconds. Amazing.

I get that he was angry, but when the hell has our relationship progressed to the point where he can give me 5 voicemails full with profanities like that.


But at least I know one thing: This is exactly why I resist calling him. Because I know the person I call would not be the person I'd want to talk to. A total stranger. And that is reason enough.


Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind
Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much you hide
You treat me like a queen when we go out
Wanna show everyone what our love's about
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd
But when no one's around

There's no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me is just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
There's a stranger in my life
You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too

Such a long way back, from this place we arrived
When I think of all the time I wasted I could cry...



LoVe~
MzP<3