Happy Halloween!

It's the 31st! Already. So Happy Halloween guys!!

In this creepy mood, I'd like to write about a little something called hypocritical bullshit. Well, It's actually someone in particular.

As most of you know, I broke up with my BF/exBF quite recently. OK, nothing wrong with that. We all breakup eventually. So there's this certain someone. This certain someone who's full of hypocritical bullshit. And I've been so incredibly pissed with her for quite some time now.

I actually forgot about my total hate for her. Until recently. She suddenly started being nice to me. Right after I announced to the world about my breakup. Like I was born yesterday. Like, hello? Does she really think I didn't know what she tried to do years ago?

This particular someone actually called me 'dear' a few days ago. That made me real angry. That made me remember what she tried to do to me. I hope she reads this and know I'm talking about her. Hypocrite.

Let's skip parts of how I knew her and how we're connected and stuff like that. Let's just say I started to know her hypocritical intentions at one of my birthday parties. Or rather, after that. At that time I had a fight with my BF/exBF and we broke up. So I didn't invite him. Instead, I came with my new boyfriend(this was one of my 2 week relationships). What I know is, my BF/exBF called me after that. And he told me he knew about my new boyfriend, that he didn't care. I didn't care either at the time. But what made me care was: Who told him. Turns out. It's this hypocrite. She saw me with my new boyfriend. And straight away called BF/exBF saying I'm here with another guy. Holding hands. As if I cheated. What I don't get is: She's supposed to be my friend. Not my BF/exBF's. I got pissed off because, neither BF/exBF nor I am ever close with her. So what's her problem trying to mess with our lives? At that time I still hadn't gotten the clue yet.

Fast forward a few months. She was effing hostile with me. I mean, she acted nice some times but mostly, she ignores me whenever I talk to her, as if she just didn't realise I was there. Even ignored me when I greeted her enthusiastically this one time. Like I wasn't there. By that time, I started to realise something.

Then there was this get together some of the parents do. We were both there and I brought my BF/exBF(yea, we got back together). He wore a pink shirt and was seating with me while we ate at a table. Eventually the table filled up with all girls, he being the only guy there. So he said he's a little uncomfortable and if he sit somewhere else. So to lighten the mood up a little, I made a joke about how he fitted right in with the girls because of his pink T-shirt. Everyone laughed. Even BF/exBF laughed and lightened up. Suddenly, out of nowhere, the hypocrite said, "Let him sit there, kesian dia." Listen, I know the whole table heard that. And I know, no one is that stupid to not know what she really is trying to do: Trying to show how much of a better girlfriend she'd make than me. Then I really know. She has been trying to get him. All this while. Trying to bring me down in his eyes. By this time I got so angry at her. Well, I kept my cool. Because BF/exBF knew that too and hated her for it.

I was still nice to her, though because our parents are friends and it's not going to be nice if I stop talking to her or something. The absolute final straw is during another school prom. I went with BF/exBF. Unfortunately, we got in a fight there because he says I was 'too friendly' to a guy. In the middle of dinner, suddenly the hypocrite showed up. She was a little late. I saw her went to the main entrance and straight away head to BF/exBF to say hi to him first. You think I'm being paranoid? Coincidence? Guess what? I sat much nearer to the entrance than he did. She'd much rather go round the table, say hi to him first and then 'acknowledge' my existence. She saw me very well. Funny she did that because she barely ever said two words to him before.

I really hate her after that incident. She's really trying to steal someone else's guy. At the same time she's still 'nice' to me. As in, when she thinks everyone's watching, she'll turn on her charm and be extra friendly.

I thought it was over when she had her own boyfriend. That time when she wasn't overly friendly to me or my boyfriend. But we never contacted each other. We see each other in those parent gatherings but would not exchange words unless we really had to. I even ignored it when people say her boyfriend had a resemblance to BF/exBF. All I thought was 'Thank God!' Maybe she got fed up for trying to get BF/exBF too long. Almost 2 years if I'm not mistaken. One other reason she didn't try more is because BF/exBF is always with me.

So what is she doing, after a few years, contacting me and calling me 'dear'? After I told everyone I broke up. Very disconcerting. Eventhough I broke up with BF/exBF, I still don't like her. I'm not going to suddenly be nice to her. At least not yet. How could I ever trust her again?

It's been a problem: Girls who think they're in a 'competition' with me in 'Who can get the guy' and it sucks. There are a few others who made moves on guys who they know is my crush. Guys who they wouldn't make a move on otherwise. Then if they get him, they 'win' and I 'lose' and it somehow proves that they are better than me. There are even girls who try real hard to break me up with my boyfriend. I just don't get it sometimes. I believe you're better than me if you get better grades. Or if you have a better personality and manners. Or if you have done better things to help people. Or if you know more. Definitely not when you 'steal' a guy from me. It just doesn't prove anything. Is it all a game to these people? Because if so, I don't want to play. They can be good at the game all they want, they can 'win' all they want. But I don't want to play.

For every guy who falls for them, there's another guy in this world who would fall for me. Oh, and I don't 'copy' anyone just because I happen to like the same guy as them. For these girls: Please grow up kid. And stop playing these games.

Happy Halloween again!


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MzP<3