It's only been a week and half of puasa so far. And yet this is the hardest puasa month I had to go through. I had stomach aches, headaches, asthma, sinus, cold and a lot of everything else. I wonder how I went through the last years of puasa. I don't remember it being this agony.
Went to Aimi's farewell dinner. She's going already. And so is a lot of other people I know. Grace is going too, very soon. I'm gonna miss them so much!!! Eiman went. Wai Wai, NJ, Mel, and even my beloved bestest bestfriend Iman!! I feel so sad right now. And like a loser. Not only am I not going anytime soon, but I haven't even been confirmed to any universities yet. And that sucks big time. I feel so envious of these people. Grace got into Cambridge!!! Man, she's already on the path to constant success. I mean even when she's 50 people will still say,"Oooh, that's the woman who went to Cambridge!" See what I mean by being envious?
Me? When am I going? I honestly don't know. Why? The reason is simple: Lack of funds. I don't know why but my parents pick this time as the time to build that super expensive house. And what happens to me? My parents aren't exactly great money-minded people. They have no idea about money. Seriously. That's why I'm in a rut right now. They used to give the excuse for not affording because they would have to send my brother too. But guess what? My brother got a scholarship and they still can't afford. Sad right? Instead, they rely too much on me getting a scholarship. Trust me, in this country, you can only get one if you're a super-nerd, a debater or have really good connections. Mostly the latter. One thing I want to be when I grow up is not like my parents. I would want to be able to send my children to study on my own terms so they can choose what they want to do and won't be bound by any company. Scholarship would only be a privilege and not a necessity. That's how I want it to be. I really hope my parents would sort it out real soon. If not, you'll be looking at someone who won't go to college/university.
I hope my parents see the light during this fasting month. I hope they can figure it out soon. My life is on the line here. And my future.
LoVe~
MzP<3
24 September 2007
13 September 2007
The Haircut
Today is the day my life changes forever! For the better, I hope. Why? Because....
Wait for it!!!!!
I've cut my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yup, you read that right. I cut my hair. Short. Really short by my standard. Doesn't go past my shoulder anymore. I'm not kidding! I'm gonna call it The Haircut.
The Haircut took a lot of consideration and thought. I mean this is a drastic change. The last time I had my hair short was when I was 5 or 6(years old). Yes, that long. Been having long hair ever since, never shorter than shoulder-length.
So you know now why The Haircut is considered a turning point in my life. Actually, I sort of like it. Until... Well, let's get back to that later. So, I have to get some getting use to this super short hair. It's so weird to run my fingers in the hair realising it stops short before my shoulder.
Okay, now let's talk about what changed my mind about The Haircut. The problem is actually a Someone instead of a Something. This particular someone thought that I 'copied' her hairstyle!! That's not the case at all! I wanted short hair because the bob cut is in style right now, you know, Victoria Beckham, Eva Longoria, Jessica Simpson. So I brought a magazine to the hairdresser for her to see. Somehow, our hair turned out to be a little similar. When I heard her saying that I copied her, I got kind of pissed. Then , I don't want The Haircut anymore. I had absolutely no intention of copying her! I really didn't. I mean, if I had known that's what she would think, I wouldn't have gone through The Haircut.
In fact, come to think of it, I have a problem with some people thinking I copied them. Like, hello? I do have a life you know. And what makes you think you're so special that anybody would want to copy you? First of all, I don't have to copy you. Who do I copy? Celebrities, famous people, socialites and latest trends. If I happen to own the same pair of pants with you, just think, it might actually be it's because Lindsay Lohan wore it last week or something. Seriously. There are some pretty people who think I copy them. Well, whatever, that's for them to think. I mean pretty people with style think everyone copies them and they're probably right sometimes. But what I don't get is the people who don't have any sense of style at all and don't even have a life would think I want to copy them. That's just really wishful thinking. I know this person who thinks I copy her but that's the last thing I would do. Not even in exams, girl. She doesn't have a sense of style. And she doesn't even have real friends. I have no idea which part of her existence on earth did I copy? Oh, wait, maybe it's cause I take showers. That's why. She so doesn't realise everyone else just happen to be taking showers too.
I'd rather copy people like Paris Hilton, Lindsay Lohan, Victoria Beckham, Gisele Bundchen, Charlize Theron, Mariah Carey, Katherine Heigl, Nicole Kidman, Jessica Alba, Tyra Banks, Cindy Crawford, Siena Miller, Nicole Ritchie, Kate Moss, Rihanna, Angelina Jolie, Jennifer Anniston, Kylie Minogue, Beyonce, Jessica Simpson, Avril Lavigne, Christina Aguilera, The Pussycat Dolls, Gwen Stefani, Jennifer Lopez, Eva Longoria, Sandra Bullock, Alicia Keys, Julia Roberts, Reese Witherspoon, Katharine McPhee, Ellen Pompeo, Hayden Panettiere, Hilary Duff, Deanna Yusof, Camilia (hell, you know I'm not kidding when I've already started on local stars), Erra Fazira, Natasha Hudson and a whole lot more people other than you, whoever you are(unless, of course, if you are infamous). I'll copy parts of these celebrities, you know, their style, clothes, shoes, dress, colour, fashion, cribs, and others. So, please consider before actually accusing me of copying you. The chances are just really really slim, if you bring these celebrities into the equation.
Actually, come to think of it, I know a few more people who would accuse me of copying their haircut. So I do feel a pinch of regret doing it, should have just permed my hair instead. But no matter what, The Haircut already happened. So I've got to live with it. Next time before I do something like this, I'll think about it first. You know, like how many people have actually done it and if they're gonna think I copied them. Damn, I hate it when unwanted coincidences like this happens. But I guess that's life.
So what am I to do but force myself to love The Haircut. And ignore these other girls. What's life without them? Haha.
LoVe~
MzP<3>
Wait for it!!!!!
I've cut my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yup, you read that right. I cut my hair. Short. Really short by my standard. Doesn't go past my shoulder anymore. I'm not kidding! I'm gonna call it The Haircut.
The Haircut took a lot of consideration and thought. I mean this is a drastic change. The last time I had my hair short was when I was 5 or 6(years old). Yes, that long. Been having long hair ever since, never shorter than shoulder-length.
So you know now why The Haircut is considered a turning point in my life. Actually, I sort of like it. Until... Well, let's get back to that later. So, I have to get some getting use to this super short hair. It's so weird to run my fingers in the hair realising it stops short before my shoulder.
Okay, now let's talk about what changed my mind about The Haircut. The problem is actually a Someone instead of a Something. This particular someone thought that I 'copied' her hairstyle!! That's not the case at all! I wanted short hair because the bob cut is in style right now, you know, Victoria Beckham, Eva Longoria, Jessica Simpson. So I brought a magazine to the hairdresser for her to see. Somehow, our hair turned out to be a little similar. When I heard her saying that I copied her, I got kind of pissed. Then , I don't want The Haircut anymore. I had absolutely no intention of copying her! I really didn't. I mean, if I had known that's what she would think, I wouldn't have gone through The Haircut.
In fact, come to think of it, I have a problem with some people thinking I copied them. Like, hello? I do have a life you know. And what makes you think you're so special that anybody would want to copy you? First of all, I don't have to copy you. Who do I copy? Celebrities, famous people, socialites and latest trends. If I happen to own the same pair of pants with you, just think, it might actually be it's because Lindsay Lohan wore it last week or something. Seriously. There are some pretty people who think I copy them. Well, whatever, that's for them to think. I mean pretty people with style think everyone copies them and they're probably right sometimes. But what I don't get is the people who don't have any sense of style at all and don't even have a life would think I want to copy them. That's just really wishful thinking. I know this person who thinks I copy her but that's the last thing I would do. Not even in exams, girl. She doesn't have a sense of style. And she doesn't even have real friends. I have no idea which part of her existence on earth did I copy? Oh, wait, maybe it's cause I take showers. That's why. She so doesn't realise everyone else just happen to be taking showers too.
I'd rather copy people like Paris Hilton, Lindsay Lohan, Victoria Beckham, Gisele Bundchen, Charlize Theron, Mariah Carey, Katherine Heigl, Nicole Kidman, Jessica Alba, Tyra Banks, Cindy Crawford, Siena Miller, Nicole Ritchie, Kate Moss, Rihanna, Angelina Jolie, Jennifer Anniston, Kylie Minogue, Beyonce, Jessica Simpson, Avril Lavigne, Christina Aguilera, The Pussycat Dolls, Gwen Stefani, Jennifer Lopez, Eva Longoria, Sandra Bullock, Alicia Keys, Julia Roberts, Reese Witherspoon, Katharine McPhee, Ellen Pompeo, Hayden Panettiere, Hilary Duff, Deanna Yusof, Camilia (hell, you know I'm not kidding when I've already started on local stars), Erra Fazira, Natasha Hudson and a whole lot more people other than you, whoever you are(unless, of course, if you are infamous). I'll copy parts of these celebrities, you know, their style, clothes, shoes, dress, colour, fashion, cribs, and others. So, please consider before actually accusing me of copying you. The chances are just really really slim, if you bring these celebrities into the equation.
Actually, come to think of it, I know a few more people who would accuse me of copying their haircut. So I do feel a pinch of regret doing it, should have just permed my hair instead. But no matter what, The Haircut already happened. So I've got to live with it. Next time before I do something like this, I'll think about it first. You know, like how many people have actually done it and if they're gonna think I copied them. Damn, I hate it when unwanted coincidences like this happens. But I guess that's life.
So what am I to do but force myself to love The Haircut. And ignore these other girls. What's life without them? Haha.
LoVe~
MzP<3>
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