Welcoming 2008

So today is the last day of 2007. New Year's Eve. 31st December 2007.

Today I'd like to recall all the things in 2007 that's great and totally unforgettable. The things that'll make me remember 2007.

• PM12 2007. Wow, eventhough there's a whole year in 2006, 2007 is when I think we became real close.
• The Haircut. The total change of hair style that is a first in my life.
• Prince. My beautiful baby kitten. Prince William Louboutin. I love him sooooo much!!!
• My birthday. Almost the whole class came. And it's one of the best birthday I've ever had!
• Good movies! And great people to see it with.
• Stock market. I've learned alot. And now I understand whenever people talk about it.
• Thyroid. Yes, my thyroid problem. I'm not exactly happy about it, but it's incredibly unforgettable. Plus, it explained why I was putting on weight rapidly.
• Twitter. Syuen introduced me to it. I am kinda hooked.
• Facebook. I'm hooked big time. It's one of the greatest inventions of the 21st century!
• Lollipops. I knew about it in 2007. And I love my Lollipops bag!
• Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows. The last we'll ever hear of Harry Potter.
• New friends. The new ones I made in 2007.

The list doesn't end here. But these are quite significant of 2007.

So 2008 here I come. My new year's resolution: To be bitchier. Well not bitchier in a that sense. But bitchier in the sense that I want to think of myself first, not be put down by others and not afraid to fight back when they try. So yes, I'll be bitchier. Got a problem with that?


LoVe~
MzP<3

Un-luckyness?

You know how superstitious people think it's bad luck to walk under a ladder? And some of them avoid it their whole lives? Well, something bad happen to me involving a ladder. To put it short: A ladder fell on my head. Ouch. I wonder if that means worse luck or not. It's got to be worse than walking under one if one falls on your head right? So I've got to really watch my luck today.

Actually, my luck today has not been that bad so far. My hair is much better eventhough my face still has at least a dozen red spots on it. I'm not working today, apparently my aunt told me not to come because the stock market is so bad. And it's boring. So I guess BF/exBF won't get his stock update today. Oh well, that's life.

I have an issue I want to blog about today. It came to me just now as I was buying food for lunch. So today I wore something quite sexy, well, cleavage-baring at least. I wore glasses instead of contacts. And what happened was that a lot of these guys at the restaurant shamelessly ogled me. And they're all Malay. I mean, these are the guys who always give 'lectures' about religion and such but their eyes still end up where it shouldn't. And obviously so. Then one day when they have daughters, they'll forbid them to wear something remotely revealing because they know how 'men' are (read: them).

OK, I'll be fair. Malay guys are not the only culprit. The last time I wore this top, a guy actually very very shamelessly walked past me and looked down my top. Hello? Pervert with a capital P. Oh, he's not Malay. Yes, yes, if I don't want the attention I shouldn't have worn this top. But it's not what you think. This top isn't that bad. Just that these guys are so deprived at sight of skin that a small revealing of the skin is sort of like soft porn or something. Or maybe they are already addicted to porn and just see women as walking porn movie whenever they show a bit of skin. You know what? If I wear this top in the USA or Australia, the guys wouldn't even blink an eye towards me. Because there are various women around me wearing more revealing tops. So here, in my country, does the guys have to be so perverted as to lower themselves to ground level? Well, that's not the worst that happened to me. The worst is when I wore a simple tank top to this shopping mall. And no, it's not in Terengganu. It is in Selangor itself. But the guys there are so kampungs who wannabe city guys that they were actually wolf-whistling. The tank top wasn't even revealing! Rant over.

I watched the movie Enchanted three times! It got really boring the third time though. The movie is good and all - rated 94% on RottenTomatoes. Yes, I recommend it. Eventhough the movie is soo not logic. I mean, what's the chances of a woman getting lost in the middle of New York City being rescued by a really good guy? A guy that's as good looking as Patrick Dempsey, no less. A guy that is a single parent with a 6 year old daughter that could fall in love with her. And guess what? He's a lawyer! A rich one at that: has a pretty big apartment in the middle of New York City. Damn, that is as logic as the cartoon turning into human. Don't ever hope of finding someone that would rescue you if you get lost in the middle of New York City, especially someone who doesn't want to take advantage of you. And not to mention is as good looking as Mr McDreamy. Otherwise, I enjoyed the movie.

LoVe~
MzP<3>

Bad Hair Day

Today I'm having one of those terrible bad hair days. But what made today different and worth a mention is because I'm having a bad 'face' day as well. I mean, there are red marks/spots on my face that is just garrishly ugly. I don't even like looking at my face today.

Also I feel like I have anorexia today. I mean, I look in the mirror and see a fat person. Actually It's worse than anorexia. My pants barely fit, my mother says I'm getting fatter and I remember going to one of those gyms a few months ago and they measured my fat and concluded that I am 'obese'. Seriously people, maybe I'm not the only one who thinks I'm fat anymore. I gained 1 kg since the last time I checked. Eventhough it's 2 kgs less than when I had that thyroid problem. Yes, OK, I admit I might be fat. But I'm certainly not obese. C'mon! Obese people surely has waist size of more than 30 at least (we're talking inches here). Do I even look obese? I guess that's why I don't trust gyms anymore. Never ever. Awful money making scumbags.

And today the market's been so down. Something to do with Dow Jones being down as well. Told you our market got no backbone. Even as I'm writing this, KLCI is down -13.51. Hong Kong and Singapore is rerally down too. My advice? If you're really brave, enter the stock market now because the government will surely push stock up before the election. But don't do it if you're not brave enough or don't have money to spare. Somehow eventhough it's a good time to buy, I know people are scared when it comes to affairs of the money.

To make things worse, BF/exBF parents just came back from Paris. They bought me a pair of jeans. And guess what? I can't fit into it!! At all!!!!! When his mother bought the jeans, she thought it was small too but was thinking, Nah, she's skinny and can probably fit the jeans. So that's how I ended up with a tiny jeans sized XS. That just made me think that I am fat. So yes, the jeans are still in my closet waiting for the day it could fit me which, sadly to say, would never come lest I do liposuction. That makes the 2nd pair of jeans I'm keeping just 'in case' I lose weight. The day has yet to come.

So anyway, I had dinner with Julie the other day at The Curve. Where else? Kenny Rogers of course. It was quite fun catching up with her. Her stories are so... refreshing, if that's the word for it. We weren't as lucky as we was last time we went out though, courtesy of the Kenny Rogers there at the Curve. Please don't go there, I wouldn't recommend it. They were out of coleslaw and mac n cheese and spaghetti. My usual side dish: coleslaw and mac n cheese. So I wanted to eat their promotion dish. And they were out of that too! Had to wait more than 30 mins for them to cook the spaghetti. Then when I finally get the dish, it was undercooked. After I finished my meal, the waiter suddenly came and said mac n cheese is ready and if I wanted some. What, he wants me to pay for something they've done wrong? So Julie suggested he give it to us as complimentary since we waited so long. So yes, he did gave us a little bit of mac n cheese but it was severely undercooked that we couldn't stomach it so I ended up hiding some of it under my leftover chicken so as not to hurt the waiter's feelings. Especially since he asked us to finish it so that his manager doesn't know.

To end it, turns out the waiter was so kind because of another reason. When we got the bill and paid, he returned the balance with his name and phone number! We didn't know if it was meant for Julie or me though, so I just took it. Later I passed it to Julie since she's the single one of us both. I have no idea what she did with that piece of paper.

Now I seriouisly need to go to the toilet. So yes, this post ends here.

LoVe~
MzP<3

End of Hiatus

Yes yes, I do realise that I haven't updated my blog in a month or so. There's a simple explanation to this, I was busy and I don't have any idea on what to write. Even now I don't have any idea yet either.

I suddenly realise that my last post was kind of harsh towards that certain someone. Oh, don't worry, I was just letting off steam then.

Moving on, you guys remember about my post a while back about a certain Barbie lipgloss and a guy who looks dangerously close to my dreamguy? Guess what? I met him again last week. Not in Midvalley MAC, where he originally worked, but in Pavillion MAC, where he works right now. Well, let's just say, I was right then. That he was gay. Eventhough last time it wasn't that obvious, now it's so obvious that I can't even deny it anymore or even hope that deep down he likes women. Haha... Guess my gaydar was working quite properly back then. I think it became more obvious because he dresses more gay, he talks more gay, and he has developed that confidence only gay guys have. I bet he probably was a closet case back then, which is why it wasn't as obvious as it is now. He may even be newly gay. Oh, hell, whatever. No use in me contemplating it since he is so obviously gay and I so obviously can't get him. Actually, he looks so gay now that I don't think a female would be interested in him anyway. So if you see him, don't judge me for liking him. I mean, I didn't know back then, did I?

So..... I'm at work right now, at my aunt's office. Yup, in RHB. The stock market's been pretty boring so that's why I have time to write this blog entry.If you want to know, the KLCI closed at +10 today, Hong Kong at +725.74 and Singapore haven't closed yet. I mean, it has but it's not updated yet. Why you need to know Hong Kong and Singapore stock index is because it affects our stock market as well. As my aunt always say: Our stock market has no backbone.

Yes I've been learning. Good for me, huh? So yes, I plan to be active in the stock market in the future.

Anyway, I don't just get knowledge from working there, I get to do things I never did. I knew what stock might go up, which might come down. I ate nicely without the watchful eyes of my mother and the voice saying I'm fat. I pickup phone calls and tell people what their current stock price. I even get to send million Ringgit checks for the clients' pickup. I mean, how many of you ever touched a million bucks check let alone carry it all the way from one office department to another, get it signed, and then carry it to yet another department. Imagine holding 1.2 million in your hands. Wow. It almost felt like mine. Haha... Almost.

So yes the post titles 'End of Hiatus' because I started working already. I promise to update more. Well, at least this month.

LoVe~

MzP<3

Happy Halloween!

It's the 31st! Already. So Happy Halloween guys!!

In this creepy mood, I'd like to write about a little something called hypocritical bullshit. Well, It's actually someone in particular.

As most of you know, I broke up with my BF/exBF quite recently. OK, nothing wrong with that. We all breakup eventually. So there's this certain someone. This certain someone who's full of hypocritical bullshit. And I've been so incredibly pissed with her for quite some time now.

I actually forgot about my total hate for her. Until recently. She suddenly started being nice to me. Right after I announced to the world about my breakup. Like I was born yesterday. Like, hello? Does she really think I didn't know what she tried to do years ago?

This particular someone actually called me 'dear' a few days ago. That made me real angry. That made me remember what she tried to do to me. I hope she reads this and know I'm talking about her. Hypocrite.

Let's skip parts of how I knew her and how we're connected and stuff like that. Let's just say I started to know her hypocritical intentions at one of my birthday parties. Or rather, after that. At that time I had a fight with my BF/exBF and we broke up. So I didn't invite him. Instead, I came with my new boyfriend(this was one of my 2 week relationships). What I know is, my BF/exBF called me after that. And he told me he knew about my new boyfriend, that he didn't care. I didn't care either at the time. But what made me care was: Who told him. Turns out. It's this hypocrite. She saw me with my new boyfriend. And straight away called BF/exBF saying I'm here with another guy. Holding hands. As if I cheated. What I don't get is: She's supposed to be my friend. Not my BF/exBF's. I got pissed off because, neither BF/exBF nor I am ever close with her. So what's her problem trying to mess with our lives? At that time I still hadn't gotten the clue yet.

Fast forward a few months. She was effing hostile with me. I mean, she acted nice some times but mostly, she ignores me whenever I talk to her, as if she just didn't realise I was there. Even ignored me when I greeted her enthusiastically this one time. Like I wasn't there. By that time, I started to realise something.

Then there was this get together some of the parents do. We were both there and I brought my BF/exBF(yea, we got back together). He wore a pink shirt and was seating with me while we ate at a table. Eventually the table filled up with all girls, he being the only guy there. So he said he's a little uncomfortable and if he sit somewhere else. So to lighten the mood up a little, I made a joke about how he fitted right in with the girls because of his pink T-shirt. Everyone laughed. Even BF/exBF laughed and lightened up. Suddenly, out of nowhere, the hypocrite said, "Let him sit there, kesian dia." Listen, I know the whole table heard that. And I know, no one is that stupid to not know what she really is trying to do: Trying to show how much of a better girlfriend she'd make than me. Then I really know. She has been trying to get him. All this while. Trying to bring me down in his eyes. By this time I got so angry at her. Well, I kept my cool. Because BF/exBF knew that too and hated her for it.

I was still nice to her, though because our parents are friends and it's not going to be nice if I stop talking to her or something. The absolute final straw is during another school prom. I went with BF/exBF. Unfortunately, we got in a fight there because he says I was 'too friendly' to a guy. In the middle of dinner, suddenly the hypocrite showed up. She was a little late. I saw her went to the main entrance and straight away head to BF/exBF to say hi to him first. You think I'm being paranoid? Coincidence? Guess what? I sat much nearer to the entrance than he did. She'd much rather go round the table, say hi to him first and then 'acknowledge' my existence. She saw me very well. Funny she did that because she barely ever said two words to him before.

I really hate her after that incident. She's really trying to steal someone else's guy. At the same time she's still 'nice' to me. As in, when she thinks everyone's watching, she'll turn on her charm and be extra friendly.

I thought it was over when she had her own boyfriend. That time when she wasn't overly friendly to me or my boyfriend. But we never contacted each other. We see each other in those parent gatherings but would not exchange words unless we really had to. I even ignored it when people say her boyfriend had a resemblance to BF/exBF. All I thought was 'Thank God!' Maybe she got fed up for trying to get BF/exBF too long. Almost 2 years if I'm not mistaken. One other reason she didn't try more is because BF/exBF is always with me.

So what is she doing, after a few years, contacting me and calling me 'dear'? After I told everyone I broke up. Very disconcerting. Eventhough I broke up with BF/exBF, I still don't like her. I'm not going to suddenly be nice to her. At least not yet. How could I ever trust her again?

It's been a problem: Girls who think they're in a 'competition' with me in 'Who can get the guy' and it sucks. There are a few others who made moves on guys who they know is my crush. Guys who they wouldn't make a move on otherwise. Then if they get him, they 'win' and I 'lose' and it somehow proves that they are better than me. There are even girls who try real hard to break me up with my boyfriend. I just don't get it sometimes. I believe you're better than me if you get better grades. Or if you have a better personality and manners. Or if you have done better things to help people. Or if you know more. Definitely not when you 'steal' a guy from me. It just doesn't prove anything. Is it all a game to these people? Because if so, I don't want to play. They can be good at the game all they want, they can 'win' all they want. But I don't want to play.

For every guy who falls for them, there's another guy in this world who would fall for me. Oh, and I don't 'copy' anyone just because I happen to like the same guy as them. For these girls: Please grow up kid. And stop playing these games.

Happy Halloween again!


LoVe~
MzP<3

Felis

Today is a nice day. Had more fun than I had had for quite awhile lately.

It's for the first time in these past few days that I feel good and nice and quite relaxed. If you haven't heard yet, I'm single again. Yup, now the BF/exBF is officially an ex. Been about a week now. I initially felt bad and broken. But you know me, all logic and stuff, i choose to ignore. Because I know that emotions are just 'in the mind' which isn't even that important. Actually, the more i think, the more I can't find a logic for crying or being sad about it. It's not like he's part of my family, or that I can't live without him. So logic overrides the whole thing. I mean, cry, and get over it. No use getting myself sick over it. He was becoming a bastard anyway.

ANYWAY. About today. I have to thank a certain someone for making my day. Syuen a.k.a. Arsyan, the self-proclaimed computer genius. A little history, I knew his since before I even remembered, maybe when I was 1/2 years old. We were neighbours.

We planned dinner initially, but when he found out I haven't watched any of the Bourne movies, he decided to make our date(well, it's not a date date in that sense) earlier. So he picked me up in the afternoon(he was 2 hours late but whatever) and brought me to his house.

Since he's a computer geek, I did expected the tons of technological mumbo jumbos in his room. Most of the latest. Even his mouse. His room even smelled like computers(yes, computers have smells!). His room is surprisingly clean though for a guy. I've seen girls' rooms much more messy than his. I think he cleaned it the day before when he knew I was coming.

We reached his place quite late actually. I blame it on his GPS. He blames it on himself(because technology stuff is the love of his life!). Anyway, I got there and forgot all about Jason Bourne when I played his Wii. OK people, if you don't know what that is, it is not something dirty. It's not something kinky. And it's definitely not the scientific term for a body part(!). It's a game thing. Yes, PS-like. Which is quite cool. I got a little carried away playing it and eating our take-away McDonald's(They came out with spicy nuggets again, yay!) that I almost forgot about the Bourne trilogy. But he reminded me.

So we started the movie. When he said he has the movies and like every series ever known, I imagined it to be in piles of CDs. But guess what? It's all in his computer. I kid you not. He has, like this connection between his computer and his flat screen so he just plays it at his computer and I could enjoy the full movie at the TV. That impresses me. Most people just burns CDs and play them in the DVD player. He doesn't need to do that of course. (He could make a fake DVD business if he wanted to! But of course he doesn't need the money).

We watched Bourne Identity and Bourne Supremacy back to back. But by the time we're done, it's dinner time. So no time to watch the third Bourne. We weren't hungry yet, however so while he went to 'lepak' on his bed, I played his super cool computer. Secretly I think his computer is under pressure too. Haha. Wanted to watch his Desperate Housewives but he didn't have the ones before episode 13. So I didn't. It was then when he said he downloaded another game for his Wii. Some Treasure Island game that got a 9.0 rating. Now, that game was so cool. Got a little addicted to it until we realised the time. Time really flies when we're having fun. It was 9.05.

Ended it with dinner at this place he says has 'famous' nasi lemak. Well, I still think my mom does it better. Those of you who have tasted my mom's nasi lemak would so agree with me. We talked alot too the whole time. We had a fun day overall and I'd so definitely do it again. Soon hopefully.

I think we have something planned for this Wednesday. Yay. Looking forward to it.

In the mean time, I'm totally channeling Nicole Kidman when she broke up with Tom Cruise. Able to still look graceful and effortless. I'm not going to abandon everything for one guy who's probably not even worth it. Lindsay Lohan says: "I won't be the one to chase you, but at the same time you're the heart that I call home." Understand that that doesn't mean I don't love him. But I think I'm making the right choice and not going to regret it. At least not today.

I wish more of my friends are here with me. Then I would get over this worthless thing sooner. I'm determined to make the most of it all. And I will.

LoVe~
MzP<3

A Little Bit

I have just found out about Twitter. OK, I know. It's been awhile already, but hey, I didn't say I was a computer geek. Other than the latest iPod, don't ask me what's the latest in technology. Gave up knowing about computer when I was 13. And even then I knew so much more about computer than other people my age. It just didn't last. Knowing every HTML code or the latest supercomputer just didn't do it for me.

Back to Twitter. Arsyan invited me(the real computer geek - or as he like to call himself, genius). He was like sooooo excited to show me how to use it and everything. He said it's free. It better be if he doesn't want me to kill him with non-technological methods e.g. my bare hands.

I'm finally accepted in a Sydney University. Macquarie to be exact. I was soo happy. Until... I knew about the Group of 8. Damn. I should have applied to the University of Sydney. I am wallowing in regret now. Hey, Macquarie is a good university. Just not in the list of the best. And is far away from the city. I don't know how I'll survive. I mean I can deal with it being far from the city if I know it's one of the best Universities in Sydney. God, how can be so careless as to not check first. And why oh why didn't anybody tell me about the Group of 8 before???

OK, relaaaaaaaxxxxxx. Breathe. Right. Tell me what to do now. Advice, anyone?

So to relax myself, I've decided to do those quizzes at Blogthings. This is one of those.

Skinny Jeans

You are classy and a bit formal when it comes to your personal style. Your look is feminine and well put together - and never trashy or too trendy.

That was 'What Style of Womens Jeans Are You?' This is another one, 'What Kind Of a Bikini Are You'.

You Are a Classic Bikini!

You are the type of gal who looks good in almost any bikini. Going for the understated look, you don't need a flashy bikini to turn heads.

Maybe one more:

You Are an "It Girl"

You're outgoing, friendly, and charismatic. You are aware of your image, and you are constantly improving yourself. You're definitely the type of girl people love to be around!

This is 'Are You an It Girl'. OK, next time I'll do more quizzes and put them here. Especially when I'm too lazy to write.

People, join Twitter and you can know what I'm doing everytime I update!


LoVe~
MzP<3