Get The Party Started!

Yesterday was total prove that when I study alot and don't sleep enough, I'll do worse in an exam than if I don't finish studying and sleep early. Oh God. My easiest paper just turned into the hardest.

Anyway.

EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh, so when's the party, right? Hehe. Everyday. Started last night.



The only thing is, I have been recently diagnosed with kidney infection. Which is potentially serious, actually. The pain is unbearable! Was, actually. Pain is manageable now. It's called Pyelonephritis, if you'd like to read about it. I'm on antibiotics now. And I have another doctor's appointment in an hour's time.


Other developments? I'm bored! Hehe. Yea, my days are all booked. From yesterday all the way till 5th December. Then, home, I'll go!!! Yay!!!

Get the party started on a Saturday night
Everybody's waiting for me to arrive
Sending out the message to all of my friends
We'll be looking flashy in my Mercedes Benz
I got lots of style, check my gold diamond rings
I can go for miles if you know what I mean

Making my connection as I enter the room
Everybody's chilling as I set up the groove
Pumping up the volume with this brand new beat
Everybody's dancing and they're dancing for me
I'm your operator, you can call anytime
I'll be your connection to the party line



LoVe~
MzP<3>

Single

So it's like this. People now know I'm single.

Well, let's just say I kind of missed the time they didn't.

Guys are around me. Again. And trust me when I say, I'm not bragging, I'm pretty much complaining.


Why? Cos guys can't really take no for an answer. They hang around, expecting something. Some of them want a relationship, and some just wanna get in my pants.

I don't want both. (And one of them even has a girlfriend!)


I'm keeping this single status for now. And for as long as I can.

Being single is like a breath of fresh air. Being free. And since I haven't been single in a LOOOONG time, it's a refreshing change.


Sooo. Exams are coming up. Shit. I'm screwed. Promise me: DON'T ask for my results when they come out. Promise?


Oh, and you know what's the best part of being single? I can really be Gavin's biggest fan. The Gav, with the abs. Best abs I've ever seen. Like, EVER. Yes, can't even compare to the magazine models. I'm bloody serious. No one believes me though. Seriously, why would anyone question my abs judging abilities is beyond me. Cos you will never find someone who likes abdominal muscles more than I do. Really.

I think abs are the most important muscles in a guy. Then, shoulders probably. And then, biceps and triceps. A guy with awesome biceps don't get a second look if he doesn't have abs. Well, to me anyway. So yes, start working on those abs.


So anyway, I'll be celebrating being single a bit more. Yay!


Make your move if you want doesn't mean I will or won't
I'm free to make my mind up you either got it or you don't
'Til then I'm single

This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm trading places
Right now a star's in the ascendant



LoVe~
MzP<3>

Saturday Night

Today is Saturday.

Happy Halloween!!!

3 Parties today. I don't mean I'm invited to three, I mean I'm going to three. Crazy huh? Haha.

Today is also the day. The day I would find out a few things. And also do a few things.


The Halloween cruise last Wednesday was bloody awesome. It's not just the cruise, but more of the after party. At Armain's apartment, in the city. OMG, it was LEGENDARY. Hehe.

His apartment had the best view ever. They had a projector for a TV. 3TB worth of videos and music. And they have a swimming pool and jacuzzi at the top floor. Imagine that.

Naturally, the swimming pool and jacuzzi is closed at night, but all of us actually climbed over the gate. We watched the amazing view.

Ali threw me in the pool. In my catwoman suit. Seriously. But that's alright, since that was when they all decided to strip down to their underwear and get in the jacuzzi.

For 20 minutes. Then someone came and chased us out. Well, not literally. They made a bargain instead: We get out of the pool, they open the bar. Just for us!! No, I'm serious.

So we got out, dressed up (I had to borrow someone's girlfriend's clothes cos my costume was all wet), and we headed to the bar. Where, naturally, everyone got more drunk.

Party ends when we all decided to grab a bite in Macca's. So Macca's we went, where I had probably the best fries I've ever tasted. And then we all got taxis home.

Awesome night.


There will be a sequel tonight. Same place. Can't wait!


And remember my previous fascination with German guys? Well... Hahaha. Goes without saying, doesn't it?


OK, so I'm off now. My day is starting soon.

Oh, and I did get the bowls for my fishes, Emilio and Valentino. Big wine glasses. They look divine.

Yes, the wine glasses are pretty expensive. Well, my fishes are low maintenance, but I'm not!

Everywhere I go, somebody I know,
Wants to come and kick it with me
Saturday night and we're gonna have a party!

LoVe~
MzP<3

Somewhere I Belong

For the first time in my life, ever, I finally feel at home.

Two years in Australia made me feel so much more at home than 20 years in Malaysia. Funny, and weird but true.

And this fact I just realised today.

After all those years for feeling like I never quite belonged anywhere, this is a refreshing revelation.

This is me. The way I am. Who I am. And I like it immensely. No, I love it.



And guess what? I can now listen to 'our' song and not burst into tears anymore. In fact it's playing right now, and eventhough I could recall the sweet memories, I do not long for it anymore. I could finally smile at the memories. Smile because they happened.

And maybe someday, I would like to fall deeply and undeniably in love again. I would wait for that time to come, and this time I would embrace it without hesitation.



Anyhow. Have we all know about my beloved Emilio? *Squealing in delight*

Yes, he's my male Siamese fighting fish I keep in a bourbon bowl on my bedside table. I love my Emilio. I named him after Emilio Pucci for his colours remind me of Pucci's designs.

And yesterday, I found a fighting fish so beautiful, I could not ever imagine not having him. His colours are of nice pink and white beautifully coloured to resemble a soft alluring floral silk dress. He's so beautiful, I knew I had to have him there and then. I knew I can't sleep until I have him.

We stood there in the shop for about an hour coming up with a name for him. Names like Lagerfeld, Gianni, Oscar, Alexander and lots of other designers came up. But of course only one name suits him Valentino.

And I would say that he is as exquisite as a Valentino gown. maybe even more so.


And today, I will own him. And he will be Emilio's new friend. Or maybe the appropriate word is 'buddy' since fighting fish don't need or want friends.

And even Sandrine found a gorgeous bright red one. One she wants to name Hercules.

I really hope we both will have a fish when we leave today.


Yes, did I tell you? We're getting my beloved Valentino today!!!!




Oh, so and what happened to the Hot Chocolate at 10am? Wow. I swear it put me in a good mood the whole day. I was practically singing!!

But that night, things took a turn. Which is keeping me very very disturbed. I have noooo idea what is happening. Or if anything is happening. I'm just confused. Very. At least give me a sign!


I will never know myself until I do this on my own
Cuz I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today



LoVe~
MzP<3

3

Have you heard Britney's new song, 3? It's my ringtone right now, but seriously that was before I found out it's about a threesome. Tempted to change, but let's just keep it for the fun of it.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not promoting threesomes. Plus a friend of mine said to never do it because you'd feel like shit the next day. And this coming from a person who would try just about anything. So yes, don't try threesome, kids.

Despite whatever happens in Gossip Girl series. (Yes, there's going to be a threesome! And no, it does not involve Chuck or Blair or, surprisingly, Georgina)


So lots have happened since my last post.


Life has gotten thoroughly better.

I like the fact that some people still don't know about the breakup. Feels kind of subtle and nice. I mean, at least people don't think it's real. Yet. I find that amusing.

And also a good thing. As I'm swearing off men for abit, I find it totally convenient that men are not around. Relieved.

But I have been busy with my friends. Everyday is like an adventure these days, that if I get out of my house, I won't get home until at least midnight. There's always something to do, someone to see. Keeps me busy.




Well, secretly, there is someone. Secretly. But it's just a harmless crush. Nothing more. Very high school, actually. Kind of like admiring someone from afar but not getting up the courage to talk to him. Rebound? I don't think so. Because all it is, is that I enjoy his company. Nothing more, nothing less. I told you, very high school.

Being reminded of high school is not too bad either... A simple innocent bout of infatuation. It's nice.


Hot chocolate at 10am. Sounds good? Yay or nay?


Ah, no matter. This thing won't last long. It's just a question of eliminating 'What if' you know?

Three is charm
Two is not the same
I don't see the harm
So are you game?

LoVe~
MzP<3

Stranger

I would admit, I have been thinking abit to much about him. I have been bursting into tears at very random moments, which doesn't even seem appropriate.

So then last night, I finally heard the voice mail he left me on my phone. The night when he came to apologize but left, and then proceeded to call me endlessly, where each time I picked up the phone he gave me another bunch of stupid reasons and excuses. This resulted in 100++ missed calls. And about 5 voice mail messages.

So I called my mailbox, and got jolted harshly back to reality. Then I realised what I should have realised ages ago: He is NOT the same guy i fell in love with. The person I'm missing might as well be dead.

What jolted me was the amount of the word fuck he could use in 3 seconds. Amazing.

I get that he was angry, but when the hell has our relationship progressed to the point where he can give me 5 voicemails full with profanities like that.


But at least I know one thing: This is exactly why I resist calling him. Because I know the person I call would not be the person I'd want to talk to. A total stranger. And that is reason enough.


Nobody believes me when I tell them that you're out of your mind
Nobody believes me when I tell them that there's so much you hide
You treat me like a queen when we go out
Wanna show everyone what our love's about
All wrapped up in me whenever there is a crowd
But when no one's around

There's no kindness in your eyes
The way you look at me is just not right
I can tell what's going on this time
There's a stranger in my life
You're not the person that I once knew
Are you scared to let them know it's you?
If they could only see you like I do
Then they would see a stranger too

Such a long way back, from this place we arrived
When I think of all the time I wasted I could cry...



LoVe~
MzP<3

A Puro Dolor

Oh my gosh. I swear, if I got home a little later, I would be puking all over the place.

I'm just so sick!

Tonight was a good night. Better than expected at least. I lost my voice, though. Funny thing, when I lose my voice, I tend to talk more, because I like to hear my self speak in a voice totally different than what I'm used to.

....

Speaking of losing voices, do you happen to know, there is an island in the US, where, in the 1800s, almost everyone speaks in sign language? The place is Martha's Vineyard, and the sign language is called Martha's Vineyard Sign Language (MVSL).

Apparently, the people on the island has very high rate of deafness. So to make it easier, everyone learns the sign language, and uses it in their everyday life, including people who are not deaf. It was so common that people used it eventhough there were no deaf people around. This just makes it much easier for the deaf people to fit in their everyday lives, and function normally with everyone else.

Wow. Can you imagine living in a place like that? Very interesting, I reckon.

Unfortunately, the MVSL sort of drifted away. The deaf rate on the island went down, and now very few people actually recall the sign language. Or possibly none at all. The sign language the deaf people use now is the usual American one.

*Pause.

OK, that was an episode of facing the toilet bowl. Shit. I'm going to feel like crap tomorrow.

(Now I remember why I don't like puking: It hurts!)

I think I need some sleep, being in this condition, but I can't sleep!!

Now I kind of wish I'm somewhere else... Where? That is a secret I'll never tell! Hehe. xoxo



I think I'd need to at least try to sleep.

But wait! I'm not drunk. I didn't drink, alright.

I truly am sick. Like, literally. Seriously sick. I think I'm supposed to go see a doctor or something, I mean, don't you have to if it comes to this point? Well, whatever.


Anyways, good night.

Y las noches me saben
A puro dolor



LoVe~
MzP<3